~ i just feel it when we're together...

[_wild__flower_]

things always have a weird way of working out, sometimes in a way you never expected...thinking back on the past year i never guess things would end up this way. last summer, upon meeting a guy, i thought things would work out so well, everything just happened so naturally. but who would of thought it would leave me confused and discontent. its supposed to make everything better, so much stronger. but i guess we knew our time was limited and rushed things. i can feel it, its starting all over again. i think as much as we try to steer ourseleves away from things we know will hurt us, we inveitably get hurt anyways. because its always the ones we want that make us crazy and sad when the ones we need are always right near by yet we don't realize it. it just sucks that the one we want is always better than the one we need, making it so much harder to keep a clear head and not set ourselves up for disapointment. i guess i just wanna do it right this time, although im scared. scared of letting go of everything ive held onto for the past year and submitting to what ive been preventing myself from for so long. i guess in time i'll realize but for now, what else can i do??...

i want things to work out before its over. i want closure, to escape the effects of regretting what could of been. i just want a little more time with him, one last chance to show him the way i feel. finally get out all the feelings...