Ikemasen no ai Chapter 10
Title: Ikemasen no ai
By: pissiMissi
Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Rin
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Characters © Rumiko Takahashi
Summary: As Rin comes of age, Sesshoumaru is caught between morals and base desires for young Rin and his old lover, Inuyasha, his half brother.
Ikemasen no ai means 'Forbidden Love'
Chapter Ten: The Mark
“Sesshoumaru-sama!” Rin, now fourteen, ran towards him a bright smile spreading across her face; white flowers were braided into her hair. “Sesshoumaru-sama!” She was barefoot wearing a crimson kimono with pink and white flowers embroidered across the back.
Seven days away from him had seemed like an eternity, yet in the last four years going to the village once every month had become a regular occasion. Kagome explained to her that her lord needed time away from her and it, in a way, was similar to her monthly visitor. Rin found the idea utterly hilarious when she asked Sesshoumaru what her mentor meant he had not answered her. However the weekly visits with the miko were not a waste of time for the girl, he had been correct in his assumption. Therefore Kagome made a bargain with Sesshoumaru, if he did not gut Inuyasha as punishment for trying to kill Rin she would train the young girl to full adulthood in the ways of a priestess.
The sacred beads she carried scattered across the ground at her feet as she ran to him.
The passed four summers were not easy for the taiyoukai. Sesshoumaru went through bouts of intense desire for Rin almost to the point of great risk for the girl’s well-being. It was decided she would live in the ningen village with the mikos once a month while he found ways to relieve himself of such desires. The first time Rin had cried and cried convinced that her lord had intentions of never coming back for her. He went to great lengths to assure her that was not the case, nips and licks on her neck to calm her down. Two years before he had consulted Bokusenon on taking the girl as his mate however the tree-youkai suggested he wait a few more years until she was stronger in her power and would be able to handle him.
Inuyasha had come to accept that Sesshoumaru no longer loved him and eventually could be in a room with Rin without causing problems. Mostly because Kagome ‘sat’ him half a dozen times afterwards he was sore for weeks.
Sesshoumaru greeted her with a stroke of her brown hair as she wrapped her arms around his waist. She smelled of jasmine and another scent he could not place, something of Kagome’s, he mused.
“I missed you so much, my lord,” she smiled up at him and kissed his hand.
“Pick up your beads and we’ll go home. Did you have a bath?”
“Yes, but it was so cold. I don’t like bathes in the river.” She said bending down to retrieve the beads she had so carelessly thrown aside, carefully placing them inside her kimono. “Can we stop at an onsen?”
“We’ll see.” Sesshoumaru picked her up when she was finished with the beads, cradling her in his arm. Her head lulled back and forth against his shoulder her fingers absently tangling and untangling in his silver hair. Soon she was sleeping peacefully the taiyoukai pulled her body tighter against him. Taking flight Sesshoumaru shielded her body from the wind and in a short time they arrived to the ancient castle of the Western Lands.
After Naraku’s death the inu-youkai was able to restore the Western Lands finally with no delay and returned to his father’s castle. Rin was given the task of cleaning and picking out whatever she wanted for her own room.
As he carried the young ningen to her bedroom memories came back to him, Rin had chosen his old room, the one his father had built. He leaned forward brushing her forehead with his lips. He covered her with the blanket staring down at her cursing himself for not finding another mate to tie him over until she was old enough. Hell, the great Inu-no-taishou had done the same with Izayoi, he found a powerful inu-youkai bitch to mate with until she was of acceptable age only the bitch had gotten pregnant foiling his plans of having only one heir. The last thing I need is my own whelp trying to overthrow me the way I tried with chichi-ue.
Rin stirred beneath his gaze her eyes opening she grinned with a twinkle in her eye that made the lord shiver. Sitting up she released just where she was and looked at him “I fell asleep…” She said with a frown.
“I’ll take you to the onsen tomorrow. Now tell me, Rin, what did you learn this week?”
The girl scooted over so he could sit down next to her and when he did she climbed up into his lap. Taking a few strands of his hair between her fingers she began to braid it as she talked, “Kagome-sama wanted me to practice with the sacred arrows. I don’t like it much….” She trailed off.
“What happened, Rin?”
She would not make eye contact with him her fingers still working on the silver braid when it was finished she licked her index finger and her thumb wetting the tip of his hair so the braid would not come undone.
“Rin,” Sesshoumaru lifted her chin forcing her to look at him, “Did you cause trouble for Kagome?”
She shook her head. “I don’t like bows and arrows,” Rin said quietly, “Kagome-sama said I was good with them but I don’t like it. I asked if I could just have beads and I wouldn’t waste them.” Her forehead wrinkled.
He let go of her chin. He didn’t understand.
She sighed and went on to pull the flowers out of her hair, “Bandits killed them.”
“What are you talking about?” He didn’t like the change in her scent, as though she was about to cry. Rin..?
“You know my parents and my big brother were killed by bandits.” She paused, “The bandits used flaming arrows to burn our house and used knives on my family.” She trembled at the memory. “I have nothing against Kagome-sama for using them….it just didn’t feel right for me to use them. It’s like I’m no better then those evil men.”
Sesshoumaru was stunned, this was the first and only time she had ever spoken of her life pre-meeting him. He didn’t know what to say or how to make her feel better, he couldn’t relate at all. He admired his father but desired to surpass him in power, rarely did he ever think of his own mother, Izayoi died shortly after his father and ever since his brother was a pup he had found him beautiful and mated with him on many occasions. Not the greatest family example to compare with. The silence between them was awkward she was practically trembling in his lap suppressing emotions that threatened to break her. Pressing his lips against her temple Sesshoumaru then licked at her cheek.
Rin giggled wiping the wetness from his warm tongue off of her. Sesshoumaru-sama had changed so much towards her it made her happy that he was so affectionate, but instead of returning the gesture she strummed her fingers against her knee not sure what to say or do. She smiled her brown eyes met his gold eyes, “Oh my beads! I should put them up.” She took the cloth baggie out of her kimono and set it on the small table next to her bed. Taking one out, she showed it to him, “They are like Inuyasha-sama’s beads.” Rin closed it tightly in her fist then dropped it into the baggie, “Only I would never give you subjugation beads like his because that would be mean.” She gave him a devious look and burst into giggles at the now wide eyed Sesshoumaru.
He was relieved that she was in a better mood, he hated when she was upset, and the idea of the girl having her own beads for him did not sit well with the taiyoukai. He stood up, “You need to sleep now, Rin.”
“Oh Sesshoumaru-sama!” She protested still snickering, “I was only kidding.”
Sesshoumaru picked her up and set her down on the bed, “I know you were. I am going to rest as well.”
- - - - - -
Rin rolled over opening her eyes she sat up. The room was dark she couldn’t see across the room. “Sesshoumaru-sama….” She whispered his name; her heart was pounding so hard in her chest it hurt. “Do you want me as much as I want you?” Rin placed her hands together over her beating heart the kisses he often gave her were not as intense as they had been that afternoon four long years ago before his younger brother ruined everything.
She knew that Inuyasha was in love with Sesshoumaru it disgusted Rin more then anything but she never spoke against either of the inu-brothers, she had no right. Shippou had informed her of all the trouble it caused between the gumi and Inuyasha but she didn’t care, it was the idea of her lord doing all of the things she wanted to do with him with someone else that hurt her so much. Only once did she bring up her pain over the situation to Kagome but the elder miko pushed the question aside it must have hurt her as much as it did Rin.
Climbing out of bed Rin walked into the hallway and down to Sesshoumaru’s door way she pushed aside the rice paper door, “Sesshoumaru-sama?” She whispered, “Gomen nasai, could I sleep with you tonight?”
He rarely ever slept, once or twice a decade. His golden eyes snapped opened before she was in the room, sitting up he looked at her, “Yes.” Sesshoumaru watched her intently as she walked across the floor to his bed and climbed up next to him. “Did you have a nightmare?” He put his arm around her when she climbed into his lap leaning back against the pillows he looked down at her.
She shook her head. “I know I shouldn’t ask, Jaken-sama always tell me I ask you too many questions but I feel like I’ll die if I don’t know.”
She’s demanding an answer.... Sesshoumaru nodded, “What is it?”
“The houshi told me once the only reason I stay with Kagome-sama is because you go off to mate with Inuyasha-sama so you don’t come after me,” Rin said, “Is that true, my lord?”
Dammit. I…how am I supposed to explain this to you, Rin? I’m only doing this to keep you safe from myself until the time is right. Everything in him wanted to tell her the truth, but he stared at her with the same stoic look he always gave her.
After several moments she realized he was not going to answer her and spoke up, “I’m not asking because I care I’m just curious. I don’t like the idea of you kissing someone else the way you kissed me.” She blushed at the forceful way she spoke to him and touched his cheek with her hand tracing the marks on his face with the tips of her fingers. I love him more then anything in the world. Rin leaned closer to him and pressed her lips against the crescent moon on his forehead, if he doesn’t love me the same…I don’t mind.
“I care for you, Rin.” He said, his clawed hand cupped the back of her head, more then I have ever cared for another being.
Rin smiled and hugged him tightly around the neck.
Sesshoumaru licked at her cheek. She was ready, the girl had loved him the moment she met him. This little ningen female had changed him in ways no one else would understand. He loved her and never wanted to lose her again and he knew what he was going to do. Closing his eyes he pulled her tightly against him, “This will hurt for only a moment,” he whispered in her ear.
She leaned her head back feeling his lips brush over her neck, the graze of teeth sent shivers through her body.
He closed his mouth over her throat lathering the place he intended to mark over with his tongue. Her heart was pounding in his ears along with his own holding her bottom up with his knee Sesshoumaru was able to cradle her, his hand took hold of her shoulder. He pulled back looking into her eyes and he kissed her forehead. “Don’t be afraid.”
“I’m not.” She said bravely staring into his beautiful gold eyes.
Sesshoumaru touched her neck again with his lips then carefully bit into her soft flesh.
Rin trembled in his grasp letting out a mewling cry as his teeth sank in.
Gathering her blood into his mouth he swallowed the tiny mouthful and licked at the wound. His eyes flashed red; biting into his tongue he covered the mark on her neck with droplets of his own blood. Sesshoumaru watched as it mixed with hers, the wound closed on its own and where he had bitten her a tiny crescent moon had form on her skin.
She moaned as the tingling from her neck moved through her whole body and when it was over Rin looked up at him. “Sesshoumaru-sama…..” She tried to sit up but was dizzy suddenly, she touched the place on her neck with her fingers and tears came to her eyes. He marked me as his mate! “Sesshoumaru-sama!”
Sesshoumaru kissed her lips tenderly cutting her off, “Sleep now.” He said, “We will talk in the morning.”
By: pissiMissi
Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Rin
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Characters © Rumiko Takahashi
Summary: As Rin comes of age, Sesshoumaru is caught between morals and base desires for young Rin and his old lover, Inuyasha, his half brother.
Ikemasen no ai means 'Forbidden Love'
Chapter Ten: The Mark
“Sesshoumaru-sama!” Rin, now fourteen, ran towards him a bright smile spreading across her face; white flowers were braided into her hair. “Sesshoumaru-sama!” She was barefoot wearing a crimson kimono with pink and white flowers embroidered across the back.
Seven days away from him had seemed like an eternity, yet in the last four years going to the village once every month had become a regular occasion. Kagome explained to her that her lord needed time away from her and it, in a way, was similar to her monthly visitor. Rin found the idea utterly hilarious when she asked Sesshoumaru what her mentor meant he had not answered her. However the weekly visits with the miko were not a waste of time for the girl, he had been correct in his assumption. Therefore Kagome made a bargain with Sesshoumaru, if he did not gut Inuyasha as punishment for trying to kill Rin she would train the young girl to full adulthood in the ways of a priestess.
The sacred beads she carried scattered across the ground at her feet as she ran to him.
The passed four summers were not easy for the taiyoukai. Sesshoumaru went through bouts of intense desire for Rin almost to the point of great risk for the girl’s well-being. It was decided she would live in the ningen village with the mikos once a month while he found ways to relieve himself of such desires. The first time Rin had cried and cried convinced that her lord had intentions of never coming back for her. He went to great lengths to assure her that was not the case, nips and licks on her neck to calm her down. Two years before he had consulted Bokusenon on taking the girl as his mate however the tree-youkai suggested he wait a few more years until she was stronger in her power and would be able to handle him.
Inuyasha had come to accept that Sesshoumaru no longer loved him and eventually could be in a room with Rin without causing problems. Mostly because Kagome ‘sat’ him half a dozen times afterwards he was sore for weeks.
Sesshoumaru greeted her with a stroke of her brown hair as she wrapped her arms around his waist. She smelled of jasmine and another scent he could not place, something of Kagome’s, he mused.
“I missed you so much, my lord,” she smiled up at him and kissed his hand.
“Pick up your beads and we’ll go home. Did you have a bath?”
“Yes, but it was so cold. I don’t like bathes in the river.” She said bending down to retrieve the beads she had so carelessly thrown aside, carefully placing them inside her kimono. “Can we stop at an onsen?”
“We’ll see.” Sesshoumaru picked her up when she was finished with the beads, cradling her in his arm. Her head lulled back and forth against his shoulder her fingers absently tangling and untangling in his silver hair. Soon she was sleeping peacefully the taiyoukai pulled her body tighter against him. Taking flight Sesshoumaru shielded her body from the wind and in a short time they arrived to the ancient castle of the Western Lands.
After Naraku’s death the inu-youkai was able to restore the Western Lands finally with no delay and returned to his father’s castle. Rin was given the task of cleaning and picking out whatever she wanted for her own room.
As he carried the young ningen to her bedroom memories came back to him, Rin had chosen his old room, the one his father had built. He leaned forward brushing her forehead with his lips. He covered her with the blanket staring down at her cursing himself for not finding another mate to tie him over until she was old enough. Hell, the great Inu-no-taishou had done the same with Izayoi, he found a powerful inu-youkai bitch to mate with until she was of acceptable age only the bitch had gotten pregnant foiling his plans of having only one heir. The last thing I need is my own whelp trying to overthrow me the way I tried with chichi-ue.
Rin stirred beneath his gaze her eyes opening she grinned with a twinkle in her eye that made the lord shiver. Sitting up she released just where she was and looked at him “I fell asleep…” She said with a frown.
“I’ll take you to the onsen tomorrow. Now tell me, Rin, what did you learn this week?”
The girl scooted over so he could sit down next to her and when he did she climbed up into his lap. Taking a few strands of his hair between her fingers she began to braid it as she talked, “Kagome-sama wanted me to practice with the sacred arrows. I don’t like it much….” She trailed off.
“What happened, Rin?”
She would not make eye contact with him her fingers still working on the silver braid when it was finished she licked her index finger and her thumb wetting the tip of his hair so the braid would not come undone.
“Rin,” Sesshoumaru lifted her chin forcing her to look at him, “Did you cause trouble for Kagome?”
She shook her head. “I don’t like bows and arrows,” Rin said quietly, “Kagome-sama said I was good with them but I don’t like it. I asked if I could just have beads and I wouldn’t waste them.” Her forehead wrinkled.
He let go of her chin. He didn’t understand.
She sighed and went on to pull the flowers out of her hair, “Bandits killed them.”
“What are you talking about?” He didn’t like the change in her scent, as though she was about to cry. Rin..?
“You know my parents and my big brother were killed by bandits.” She paused, “The bandits used flaming arrows to burn our house and used knives on my family.” She trembled at the memory. “I have nothing against Kagome-sama for using them….it just didn’t feel right for me to use them. It’s like I’m no better then those evil men.”
Sesshoumaru was stunned, this was the first and only time she had ever spoken of her life pre-meeting him. He didn’t know what to say or how to make her feel better, he couldn’t relate at all. He admired his father but desired to surpass him in power, rarely did he ever think of his own mother, Izayoi died shortly after his father and ever since his brother was a pup he had found him beautiful and mated with him on many occasions. Not the greatest family example to compare with. The silence between them was awkward she was practically trembling in his lap suppressing emotions that threatened to break her. Pressing his lips against her temple Sesshoumaru then licked at her cheek.
Rin giggled wiping the wetness from his warm tongue off of her. Sesshoumaru-sama had changed so much towards her it made her happy that he was so affectionate, but instead of returning the gesture she strummed her fingers against her knee not sure what to say or do. She smiled her brown eyes met his gold eyes, “Oh my beads! I should put them up.” She took the cloth baggie out of her kimono and set it on the small table next to her bed. Taking one out, she showed it to him, “They are like Inuyasha-sama’s beads.” Rin closed it tightly in her fist then dropped it into the baggie, “Only I would never give you subjugation beads like his because that would be mean.” She gave him a devious look and burst into giggles at the now wide eyed Sesshoumaru.
He was relieved that she was in a better mood, he hated when she was upset, and the idea of the girl having her own beads for him did not sit well with the taiyoukai. He stood up, “You need to sleep now, Rin.”
“Oh Sesshoumaru-sama!” She protested still snickering, “I was only kidding.”
Sesshoumaru picked her up and set her down on the bed, “I know you were. I am going to rest as well.”
- - - - - -
Rin rolled over opening her eyes she sat up. The room was dark she couldn’t see across the room. “Sesshoumaru-sama….” She whispered his name; her heart was pounding so hard in her chest it hurt. “Do you want me as much as I want you?” Rin placed her hands together over her beating heart the kisses he often gave her were not as intense as they had been that afternoon four long years ago before his younger brother ruined everything.
She knew that Inuyasha was in love with Sesshoumaru it disgusted Rin more then anything but she never spoke against either of the inu-brothers, she had no right. Shippou had informed her of all the trouble it caused between the gumi and Inuyasha but she didn’t care, it was the idea of her lord doing all of the things she wanted to do with him with someone else that hurt her so much. Only once did she bring up her pain over the situation to Kagome but the elder miko pushed the question aside it must have hurt her as much as it did Rin.
Climbing out of bed Rin walked into the hallway and down to Sesshoumaru’s door way she pushed aside the rice paper door, “Sesshoumaru-sama?” She whispered, “Gomen nasai, could I sleep with you tonight?”
He rarely ever slept, once or twice a decade. His golden eyes snapped opened before she was in the room, sitting up he looked at her, “Yes.” Sesshoumaru watched her intently as she walked across the floor to his bed and climbed up next to him. “Did you have a nightmare?” He put his arm around her when she climbed into his lap leaning back against the pillows he looked down at her.
She shook her head. “I know I shouldn’t ask, Jaken-sama always tell me I ask you too many questions but I feel like I’ll die if I don’t know.”
She’s demanding an answer.... Sesshoumaru nodded, “What is it?”
“The houshi told me once the only reason I stay with Kagome-sama is because you go off to mate with Inuyasha-sama so you don’t come after me,” Rin said, “Is that true, my lord?”
Dammit. I…how am I supposed to explain this to you, Rin? I’m only doing this to keep you safe from myself until the time is right. Everything in him wanted to tell her the truth, but he stared at her with the same stoic look he always gave her.
After several moments she realized he was not going to answer her and spoke up, “I’m not asking because I care I’m just curious. I don’t like the idea of you kissing someone else the way you kissed me.” She blushed at the forceful way she spoke to him and touched his cheek with her hand tracing the marks on his face with the tips of her fingers. I love him more then anything in the world. Rin leaned closer to him and pressed her lips against the crescent moon on his forehead, if he doesn’t love me the same…I don’t mind.
“I care for you, Rin.” He said, his clawed hand cupped the back of her head, more then I have ever cared for another being.
Rin smiled and hugged him tightly around the neck.
Sesshoumaru licked at her cheek. She was ready, the girl had loved him the moment she met him. This little ningen female had changed him in ways no one else would understand. He loved her and never wanted to lose her again and he knew what he was going to do. Closing his eyes he pulled her tightly against him, “This will hurt for only a moment,” he whispered in her ear.
She leaned her head back feeling his lips brush over her neck, the graze of teeth sent shivers through her body.
He closed his mouth over her throat lathering the place he intended to mark over with his tongue. Her heart was pounding in his ears along with his own holding her bottom up with his knee Sesshoumaru was able to cradle her, his hand took hold of her shoulder. He pulled back looking into her eyes and he kissed her forehead. “Don’t be afraid.”
“I’m not.” She said bravely staring into his beautiful gold eyes.
Sesshoumaru touched her neck again with his lips then carefully bit into her soft flesh.
Rin trembled in his grasp letting out a mewling cry as his teeth sank in.
Gathering her blood into his mouth he swallowed the tiny mouthful and licked at the wound. His eyes flashed red; biting into his tongue he covered the mark on her neck with droplets of his own blood. Sesshoumaru watched as it mixed with hers, the wound closed on its own and where he had bitten her a tiny crescent moon had form on her skin.
She moaned as the tingling from her neck moved through her whole body and when it was over Rin looked up at him. “Sesshoumaru-sama…..” She tried to sit up but was dizzy suddenly, she touched the place on her neck with her fingers and tears came to her eyes. He marked me as his mate! “Sesshoumaru-sama!”
Sesshoumaru kissed her lips tenderly cutting her off, “Sleep now.” He said, “We will talk in the morning.”