Intro...kinda: restarting (again)
Name:Becky
Age: 26 (27 later this year)
Height: 5'3"
SW (starting weight): 258.2
CW (current weight): 258.2
GW (goal weight): for now, 5%, then I'll go on from there
Anything else you wanna add: I think I've lost cout of amount of times I've been off and back on the wagon....
Hi all, just thought I'd pop in to (re)introduce myself. Technically I've been a member of this community for a few years (posted a few times under my old name, soldiers_pixie) but haven't frequented the comm much since I haven't really been sticking to program for a while.
Like mentioned above, I really have lost track of how many times I've been off and back on the program. I was first introduced to WW when I was 16, but wasn't very serious about it. Around the fall of my 22nd birthday I moved back home from college, being in the bridal party of a friend's upcomming wedding gave me the push to revisit it. I stuck fairly diligently to it and ended up losing 10%. For reasons I really don't know I fell off the wagon not too long after that, and these past few years have pretty much been rinse and repeat...go back on plan, stay for a while, fall back onto old (unhealthy) habits, stop going to meetings and tracking...pretty much not being on program, decide to go back and more often than not see I've regained all that I lost as well as a little more, again, stay for a whle, fall off wagon, go back at higher new starting weight....and so on and so forth.
I've realized a lot of things I'd said to myself and in meetings way back when I first moved back (i.e goals: been overwieght most of my young adult and teenage life, would like to see myself at a healthy weight as an adult....wish shopping with my 2 best friends wasn't awkward when it came to clothes--aka....walking into a standard size store, 'oaky you guys have fun checking out those outfits, I'm gonna check out....those purses/shoes/jewlery....' and putting them in similar position when they'd be kind enough to come with me to check out LB or other plus size store in the mall....I will say Old Navy limited that since it'd have my size as well as theirs but I digress..) were just that, words. It's like I naively expected some magic wand to appear and suddenly I'd be able to fit into a large or see what I look like underneath the extra pounds as a post pubescent woman. I wasn't putting in the work to see the results I wanted.
As to why I'm trying to get back and stay on track now: my family just moved out of the apartment we've lived in for about 20 years, which of course meant a lot of clearing out of stuff. When it came to old clothes my mom (who does WW with me) and I had the rule of----if it can possibly fit now or within a couple of months take it to new apartment (we're kind of built in a way that we're about the same size even though she's about 30lbs less than I am right now), so pretty much 20 and up, a few 18s if it was something we really loved and can't part with), anything 16-18 put in storage, and beyond that...garbage. I just realized there were a lot of things I had to put in storage and even more being put in the trash, which was upsetting. And it was also upsetting that in the cleaning/packing process I was getting wiped out a lot. It's not really a good sign that a woman in her 60s has more endurance and stamina that a girl in her 20s I must say. I needed to take a lot more breaks than my mom. Sure there's other factors at play, mainly being I'm a bit anemic and have just recently gotten back on iron supplements but still I'm not going to be naive enough to think the majority of the issue wasn't my weight.
And along with getting wiped out easily, body aching more than it should at 26. My main problem has been my knees and back. They've been an occasional issue for a while, but now more recently with the packing heaving and hauling, and some (but admittedly really very little) climbing in the new apartment (right now my bed frame is on the floor since we haven't had a chance to put the rest together yet, and we have a sunken living room so there's a couple of steps) the knees have been twinging a lot more. And yeah, that's no good at all. I'm too young to need to be like those older women in those advil comercials poping pills because their knees are killing them! lol.
So, with all that, and generally seeing my activity level and eating habits were just not good at all, I decided to go back to WW yesterday. Both my mother and my weights were up from the last time we'd been to a meeting, and mom pointed out "you know its from what we've been eating...with the amount of stuff we've done at the old apartment, had we been eating better, the numbers wouldn't have been so bad..." and she was right. I honestly can't remember the last time I cooked, period, let alone cooked a healthy meal for myself.
But the real clincher was later on yesterday. We went to get our nails done and for some reason the woman I usually see was at a different table so while she was working on me, I'm sitting by this full length mirror and seeing myself from the side. I honestly was not happy with what I was seeing. You know how it is...you of course know how big you might be intellectually but actually seeing yourself is another story. I know I'm big, and have pictures from just a couple of weeks ago from head on which show me (which also helped in the yeah okay time to get serious decision making), but seeing a side view was a whole new level of upsetting.
So here I am. I'm trying to make better choices with food, and starting tomorrow I'm going back to hitting the gym regularly. I'm planning on hitting said gym very softly at first though since I haven't been in about 18 months, but I'm hoping its enough to build up momentum and really stick to it and see results.
So, in case of tl:dr---pretty much, I've been off and on program a lot these past couple of years. Recent events have led me to really see how out of shape I am [aka I'm a 26 year old with the endurance level of a 80 yr old...] and in general I'm not liking what I see in pictures and in the mirror.
My past experience has shown me that when I stick to the plan I see and feel wonderful results. So, the only hurdle is *staying* on plan, and not giving up for whatever reason (I'll admit, usually it's been just laziness..) like I've been doing.
I just keep thinking 'oh yeah, I'm motivated and good to go NOW, but c'mon we've seen this before, in a few months I'll make up some excuse and fall off the wagon and then in a year I'll be doing this again...' and I'm trying not to let that way of thinking linger in my head since that's pretty much setting myself up for a self fufilling prophecy and being incredibly negative but it's hard. Any words of wisdom on how to stay motivated from anyone who might have had a revolving door in their WW history would definetely be appreciated.
Thanks, and sorry for rambling on and on haha.
Age: 26 (27 later this year)
Height: 5'3"
SW (starting weight): 258.2
CW (current weight): 258.2
GW (goal weight): for now, 5%, then I'll go on from there
Anything else you wanna add: I think I've lost cout of amount of times I've been off and back on the wagon....
Hi all, just thought I'd pop in to (re)introduce myself. Technically I've been a member of this community for a few years (posted a few times under my old name, soldiers_pixie) but haven't frequented the comm much since I haven't really been sticking to program for a while.
Like mentioned above, I really have lost track of how many times I've been off and back on the program. I was first introduced to WW when I was 16, but wasn't very serious about it. Around the fall of my 22nd birthday I moved back home from college, being in the bridal party of a friend's upcomming wedding gave me the push to revisit it. I stuck fairly diligently to it and ended up losing 10%. For reasons I really don't know I fell off the wagon not too long after that, and these past few years have pretty much been rinse and repeat...go back on plan, stay for a while, fall back onto old (unhealthy) habits, stop going to meetings and tracking...pretty much not being on program, decide to go back and more often than not see I've regained all that I lost as well as a little more, again, stay for a whle, fall off wagon, go back at higher new starting weight....and so on and so forth.
I've realized a lot of things I'd said to myself and in meetings way back when I first moved back (i.e goals: been overwieght most of my young adult and teenage life, would like to see myself at a healthy weight as an adult....wish shopping with my 2 best friends wasn't awkward when it came to clothes--aka....walking into a standard size store, 'oaky you guys have fun checking out those outfits, I'm gonna check out....those purses/shoes/jewlery....' and putting them in similar position when they'd be kind enough to come with me to check out LB or other plus size store in the mall....I will say Old Navy limited that since it'd have my size as well as theirs but I digress..) were just that, words. It's like I naively expected some magic wand to appear and suddenly I'd be able to fit into a large or see what I look like underneath the extra pounds as a post pubescent woman. I wasn't putting in the work to see the results I wanted.
As to why I'm trying to get back and stay on track now: my family just moved out of the apartment we've lived in for about 20 years, which of course meant a lot of clearing out of stuff. When it came to old clothes my mom (who does WW with me) and I had the rule of----if it can possibly fit now or within a couple of months take it to new apartment (we're kind of built in a way that we're about the same size even though she's about 30lbs less than I am right now), so pretty much 20 and up, a few 18s if it was something we really loved and can't part with), anything 16-18 put in storage, and beyond that...garbage. I just realized there were a lot of things I had to put in storage and even more being put in the trash, which was upsetting. And it was also upsetting that in the cleaning/packing process I was getting wiped out a lot. It's not really a good sign that a woman in her 60s has more endurance and stamina that a girl in her 20s I must say. I needed to take a lot more breaks than my mom. Sure there's other factors at play, mainly being I'm a bit anemic and have just recently gotten back on iron supplements but still I'm not going to be naive enough to think the majority of the issue wasn't my weight.
And along with getting wiped out easily, body aching more than it should at 26. My main problem has been my knees and back. They've been an occasional issue for a while, but now more recently with the packing heaving and hauling, and some (but admittedly really very little) climbing in the new apartment (right now my bed frame is on the floor since we haven't had a chance to put the rest together yet, and we have a sunken living room so there's a couple of steps) the knees have been twinging a lot more. And yeah, that's no good at all. I'm too young to need to be like those older women in those advil comercials poping pills because their knees are killing them! lol.
So, with all that, and generally seeing my activity level and eating habits were just not good at all, I decided to go back to WW yesterday. Both my mother and my weights were up from the last time we'd been to a meeting, and mom pointed out "you know its from what we've been eating...with the amount of stuff we've done at the old apartment, had we been eating better, the numbers wouldn't have been so bad..." and she was right. I honestly can't remember the last time I cooked, period, let alone cooked a healthy meal for myself.
But the real clincher was later on yesterday. We went to get our nails done and for some reason the woman I usually see was at a different table so while she was working on me, I'm sitting by this full length mirror and seeing myself from the side. I honestly was not happy with what I was seeing. You know how it is...you of course know how big you might be intellectually but actually seeing yourself is another story. I know I'm big, and have pictures from just a couple of weeks ago from head on which show me (which also helped in the yeah okay time to get serious decision making), but seeing a side view was a whole new level of upsetting.
So here I am. I'm trying to make better choices with food, and starting tomorrow I'm going back to hitting the gym regularly. I'm planning on hitting said gym very softly at first though since I haven't been in about 18 months, but I'm hoping its enough to build up momentum and really stick to it and see results.
So, in case of tl:dr---pretty much, I've been off and on program a lot these past couple of years. Recent events have led me to really see how out of shape I am [aka I'm a 26 year old with the endurance level of a 80 yr old...] and in general I'm not liking what I see in pictures and in the mirror.
My past experience has shown me that when I stick to the plan I see and feel wonderful results. So, the only hurdle is *staying* on plan, and not giving up for whatever reason (I'll admit, usually it's been just laziness..) like I've been doing.
I just keep thinking 'oh yeah, I'm motivated and good to go NOW, but c'mon we've seen this before, in a few months I'll make up some excuse and fall off the wagon and then in a year I'll be doing this again...' and I'm trying not to let that way of thinking linger in my head since that's pretty much setting myself up for a self fufilling prophecy and being incredibly negative but it's hard. Any words of wisdom on how to stay motivated from anyone who might have had a revolving door in their WW history would definetely be appreciated.
Thanks, and sorry for rambling on and on haha.