The only broken hearted loser you'll ever need.
Well, so far this summer I can't determine if its been eventful or not. By eventful I mean but and adventurous. None of my friends call me and I know what your thinking, Ha what a loser! Yea I probably am a loser. But anyways Litterally, none of my friends call me. It's quite annoying how fake they are and how they think they can get away with it. I really would like to avoid naming names although I'd love to put them out in the open. all of a sudden with them its like i'm no good. I'm seriously like embarssed to call them,scared to be turned down because it's happend far to many times. And i know in a couple months when i get my lisence they won't think twice about being my friend. I refuse to let them walk all over me. My friendship is worth having i believe im honest, kind and caring. I bend backwards for my friends. That's something i feel very strong about.
Having a long term relationship in the summer defiently has its ups and downs. Mostly ups i guess though. Zach is always there to comfort me except when he is the one who upsets me. Me and him try to find our on fun. He really doesn't talk to our friends either anymore. they are snobby. He works like 10 hours a day at his families bussiness. This fourth of July weekend was pretty fun. I went to Zach's family cotage down in southern marlyand. We went tubing and swimming. It was a nice chance to get away from him working and stuff. We saw fireworks and stuff. The water was really pretty and it gave me time to just sit and think about what I want to make of this life. Heres what i determined, All bodies of water are full of unknown things but that doesn't stop us from getting in. So I'm going to make the most of this summer and just do everything that is offered to me. I have to many things to look forward to this summer to be down and depressed. I leave for France on July. 18th. Thats my get away. i'm hoping to come back changed. A new outlook on everything. I just want a life that's careless and fun. I want my friends to be real friends. And I want my friendship to be values because I sure do value yours. And to all my "friends", Please don't ever forget who was there first.
All my love,
megan