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Basics
♥1. Name: Nani
♥2. Age: 20
♥3. Sex: Female
♥4. Location: very, very far North
♥5. Sexuality: straight
♥6. Status: incredibly taken
♥7. Siblings: just an older brother
What Makes You YOU?
♥1. Name one life altering experience, good or bad. Be as specific as possible.
My son's father and I are no longer together. I tried for two years to make it work. How it finally ended has changed my life in a way that I will never regret. We were a week away from buying my engagement ring, less than two months away from moving in together, and less than a month away from our son's first birthday. I'd been accepted to transfer to a college closer to where we'd be moving in together; everything in my life was going great. Then my son's father called me (he was living 7 hours away, in a different state, at the time) and said that he was having doubts about our relationship and he wanted to go back to his ex-girlfriend who he also has a child with. (Please don't comment on him. He was a mistake in my life, I admit. But he gave me a beautiful son and for that I can never dislike him.) I was heartbroken and furious. But surprisingly, this wasn't the first time he'd left me for her. (Or left her for me, for that matter.) It took me about a week and a lot of talking with very close friends to realize that I'd let him use me... and not only that, I'd let him use our son. He'd walk all over me and was in essence walking on our child. He was lying to me, cheating on me, leaving me and running back whenever it was what he wanted. And I'd let him, the whole time. I finally realized that I shouldn't have to demand respect from him, but that was the only way I was going to get it. I never expected him to treat me well, and he never did. Since that day I have always put my foot down with him about his relationship with our son. And I have moved on to better things - I found a wonderful, wonderful man who respects me without being asked and shows me what I was missing. I sum it all up with a line from the Rolling Stones: "You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometime, you just might find you get what you need."
♥2. Marilyn Manson said, "People don't keep journals for themselves, they keep them for other people. Like a secret they don't want to tell, but they want everyone to know.” What sort of information is contained in your Live Journal? Is it friends-only? Why/Why Not? Prove you have brains behind that beauty
I kept a journal at Open Diary for nearly 5 years. I still have it saved on my computer and I read bits and pieces from time to time to see how I've grown and matured over the years. It started out as a cheap little way to get out my teenage angst. It progressed to my deeper thoughts about life and what college would bring. It took a radical turn when I became the only pregnant girl at my university, and then became a place for me to document the beginning of my son's life. I was targeted at Open Diary - why, I am not sure. My journal was hacked and the person or persons responsible began to destroy it. I decided I didn't want to let them have their fun with my journal so I downloaded it and deleted the entire thing from the website. I moved here when a good friend suggested I'd enjoy it more. I do. I am still writing in my journal to document my busy days as a full time mom, full time girlfriend, and full time college student. I also use my journal to write my thoughts on parenting in a less-than mainstream way (you might call me "granola"... I say it's the way nature intended.).
♥3. If you had to give up one IMPORTANT thing in your life, what would it be? Explain why you think you could live without it.
My camera is a precious thing to me. I love having physical memories that I can take out and remember, one at a time. But if I was told I had to give up my camera without option for refusal, I'd live. I would hate it. I would fight it. But I would live. In some ways it would probably be better; it would force me to truly examine every moment of my life because I would know there wouldn't be a snapshot to look back on.
♥4. What point in your life so far have you felt the most confident and perfect? Explain the scenario and your feelings attached to it. Provide a picture if possible.
Being a mom is quite possibly the greatest thing in life. (Hey, this is my application and I'm allowed to have my opinions! If you disagree, you probably don't have kids.) And part of being a mom is breastfeeding. I love knowing that I have the ability to provide my son with the best of the best of the best. I am providing for my son the way that the greatest women of history provided for their children. The way that the greatest men and women of history were provided for by their mothers. Breasts were made to provide milk for children. That's why it's possible for men to lactate; they have smaller, undeveloped... you guessed it - breasts! Breastfeeding my son fills me with a sense of confidense and lets me know that I am the best thing in the world to him. This is a picture of us nursing just days after he was born.
Time To Reveal Your Beauty!
♥1. First and foremost, a cute picture of you. Try to have one that shows your face really well.
(Excuse the look on my son's face... I caught him mid-sentence.)
♥2. Now, a picture of something/someone you love dearly. A person, pet, or object.. Whatever!
(My son... this little imp. I'd just told him not to sit on the coffee table, so he figured laying on it was okay!)
♥3. Next, we want to see a picture of you at what you consider your worst. One with no make-up, or silly make-up… One where you looked and first cringed. How can we love you at your best if we haven‘t seen your worst?♥
(The day my son was born. I had been in labor for 38 hours, I was puffy, I'd broken a ton of blood vessels in my face from pushing... Ugh. I looked like death warmed up.)
♥4. Post 5-10 pictures of you. Any pictures you'd like. Prove to us how gorgeous you are.
(Might as well start young. You can clearly see, I was an adorable baby.)
(Senior picture. Again, old... but still me!)
(One of my favorites of Mike [my boyfriend] and myself.)
(Another old one. About two years ago... one of my favorite pregnancy pictures.)
(My son and myself.)
(About seven months ago when my hair was long.)
♥PROMOTE IN YOUR JOURNAL.
I backdated it one day behind my friends only post for reasons congruent to why I moved to this site in the first place.http://www.livejournal.com/users/amphibology29/