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wow....i havent updated in a while!
so yeah im soooo stressed out right now!! like for real i have been crying so much and usually about nothing! finals are coming up and hopefully they arent going to be too difficult! but who knows...
im so completely confused about soo much right now. i dont want to hurt ne one , i hate myself because i get too close and then i have to back off! its just such a struggle for me and i know i cant do it but i just let myself put my guard down, and then i know i have to put it back up.
i know this doesnt make much since, but i just have to get it out.
i starting reading this book its called,"when God writes your love story" or something like that...but its so awesome. i know so many people dont believe in real love, lasting love, but i know that it is out there. call me naive, but i chose to believe that the creator of this universe, the creator or you and me, has a perfect plan for my life, and if i just let him have control, then maybe i will quit messing things up. maybe im just trying to find something to hope for or in, but i would rather have hope and joy than go through my life wondering why im here, why i was born. i want to have purpose and meaning, and i know that a true relationship with God will do that.
i know that nothing is ever perfect, but we can have happiness, and hope. we can have meaning and joy and love. sorry if this doesnt make since to you but it does to me. and if you disagree then, well, im not sorry because i believe this with all my heart, but i am sorry if you feel that you dont have ne hope and you are just walking around not knowing why you are on this planet, with no purpose or meaning. Jesus loves you, whether you love him in return, he loves you! whether you want him to or not, he loves you! :)
so yeah im soooo stressed out right now!! like for real i have been crying so much and usually about nothing! finals are coming up and hopefully they arent going to be too difficult! but who knows...
im so completely confused about soo much right now. i dont want to hurt ne one , i hate myself because i get too close and then i have to back off! its just such a struggle for me and i know i cant do it but i just let myself put my guard down, and then i know i have to put it back up.
i know this doesnt make much since, but i just have to get it out.
i starting reading this book its called,"when God writes your love story" or something like that...but its so awesome. i know so many people dont believe in real love, lasting love, but i know that it is out there. call me naive, but i chose to believe that the creator of this universe, the creator or you and me, has a perfect plan for my life, and if i just let him have control, then maybe i will quit messing things up. maybe im just trying to find something to hope for or in, but i would rather have hope and joy than go through my life wondering why im here, why i was born. i want to have purpose and meaning, and i know that a true relationship with God will do that.
i know that nothing is ever perfect, but we can have happiness, and hope. we can have meaning and joy and love. sorry if this doesnt make since to you but it does to me. and if you disagree then, well, im not sorry because i believe this with all my heart, but i am sorry if you feel that you dont have ne hope and you are just walking around not knowing why you are on this planet, with no purpose or meaning. Jesus loves you, whether you love him in return, he loves you! whether you want him to or not, he loves you! :)