I AM SO SAD :(((((
omggggggggggggggg
i came home from school today at around 5 because alisa's mom gave us a ride after she was done working. when i came home i went directly to my mom's room to check on her because she had had to go to the hospital at three in the morning last night and i hadnt seen her since then. i went in and she was in a really pissy mood not responding to anything i was saying. so i said "oh i got and 88 on that AP US test!" for me, getting an 88 is the most spectacular grade but considering how hard the material is for me to understand i think an 88 isnt that bad. but anyways so she doesnt say anything. and i go "mom did you hear me?" and shes like "YES?!" and im like "okay well can you respond?" and she goes "im THINKING?!" and i go "what is there to think about...?" and she says "DONT DISRESPECT ME!!! and 88 isnt good enough!"
so basically i went ballistic and started yelling at her about my grades. honestly, i take 4 AP courses, one of which i have like a D in, and i also have a foreign language. so i am really trying to do well this quarter. so far im doing a good job. good grades all the way. except for calculus, but he hasnt even given us a test for this quarter yet, so nothing has happened yet. so anyways i just told her that i do study hard and i do try. and she said that i dont try hard enough and that all i do is go out and party every day and weekend. i said "where and when does this partying even occur???!!!! i come home and do my homework. i am self-motivated to do really well in all my courses." then she started going off saying stuff like "you know, you like to hear yourself say that dont you?" she started pulling also to psycho-analytical bullshit on me. i was like "there is no weird pyschological part of this that im dealing with...im merely telling you the truth." and shes like "you have totally given up in calc blee blah"
so not only was she talking to me about how much of a bad girl i am for not studying or doing anything but she made the issue about herself. at one point after i explained all of my feelings to her. she stared at me with this disgusting look on her face that made me want to slap her hard. i was like "why are you looking at me as if i have just said something extremely bizarre?" and shes like "oh, well, im not looking at you like that...i just realized that you are walking all over me..." WHAT THE FUCK!!!!???? THIS IS FUCKING ABOUT YOU! YOU DONT KNOW JACK SHIT! YOU NEVER ASK ME ABOUT MY CLASSES! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HOW MUCH HARD WORK I DO! THIS BITCH DOESN'T KNOW ANYTHING AND SHE DOESN'T CARE! NOTHING IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE PSYCHOTIC BITCH! shes like "i work so hard for you to do this and that" like her arguments dont even fucking make sense.
its so frustrating to not only be talked to your parents about you "bad" grades but to also have your own parent make it into this whole other dramatic issue about how you are approaching the very issue at hand.
so i called my dad but he was "in a meeting". fucking typical.
i have decided that i am going to go to UCLA for college, that is if i get in with my HORRIBLE GRADES. then i am going to move out to los angeles away from the bitch and that way i only have to see her when i want to. i dont have to feel guilty, its not like she is even going to pay a dime for my college tuition anyways. hah. im going to write about this someday and then the whole world will see how much of a crazy bitch she is.
i came home from school today at around 5 because alisa's mom gave us a ride after she was done working. when i came home i went directly to my mom's room to check on her because she had had to go to the hospital at three in the morning last night and i hadnt seen her since then. i went in and she was in a really pissy mood not responding to anything i was saying. so i said "oh i got and 88 on that AP US test!" for me, getting an 88 is the most spectacular grade but considering how hard the material is for me to understand i think an 88 isnt that bad. but anyways so she doesnt say anything. and i go "mom did you hear me?" and shes like "YES?!" and im like "okay well can you respond?" and she goes "im THINKING?!" and i go "what is there to think about...?" and she says "DONT DISRESPECT ME!!! and 88 isnt good enough!"
so basically i went ballistic and started yelling at her about my grades. honestly, i take 4 AP courses, one of which i have like a D in, and i also have a foreign language. so i am really trying to do well this quarter. so far im doing a good job. good grades all the way. except for calculus, but he hasnt even given us a test for this quarter yet, so nothing has happened yet. so anyways i just told her that i do study hard and i do try. and she said that i dont try hard enough and that all i do is go out and party every day and weekend. i said "where and when does this partying even occur???!!!! i come home and do my homework. i am self-motivated to do really well in all my courses." then she started going off saying stuff like "you know, you like to hear yourself say that dont you?" she started pulling also to psycho-analytical bullshit on me. i was like "there is no weird pyschological part of this that im dealing with...im merely telling you the truth." and shes like "you have totally given up in calc blee blah"
so not only was she talking to me about how much of a bad girl i am for not studying or doing anything but she made the issue about herself. at one point after i explained all of my feelings to her. she stared at me with this disgusting look on her face that made me want to slap her hard. i was like "why are you looking at me as if i have just said something extremely bizarre?" and shes like "oh, well, im not looking at you like that...i just realized that you are walking all over me..." WHAT THE FUCK!!!!???? THIS IS FUCKING ABOUT YOU! YOU DONT KNOW JACK SHIT! YOU NEVER ASK ME ABOUT MY CLASSES! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HOW MUCH HARD WORK I DO! THIS BITCH DOESN'T KNOW ANYTHING AND SHE DOESN'T CARE! NOTHING IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE PSYCHOTIC BITCH! shes like "i work so hard for you to do this and that" like her arguments dont even fucking make sense.
its so frustrating to not only be talked to your parents about you "bad" grades but to also have your own parent make it into this whole other dramatic issue about how you are approaching the very issue at hand.
so i called my dad but he was "in a meeting". fucking typical.
i have decided that i am going to go to UCLA for college, that is if i get in with my HORRIBLE GRADES. then i am going to move out to los angeles away from the bitch and that way i only have to see her when i want to. i dont have to feel guilty, its not like she is even going to pay a dime for my college tuition anyways. hah. im going to write about this someday and then the whole world will see how much of a crazy bitch she is.