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[_vvitchbaby_]

i say things that i dont mean to. i tell the bitter truth, though it might not be to my benifit. i have to see things in ways that i dont think anyone understands, or i will fall. i have to seethings the way i want to, not necisarily the way they are. playing pretend is how i survive. getting all dressed up, then going to places where the hugs, and the hello's are nameless, and the smiles are meaningless is how i get away. dancing and dreaming are how i forget my troubles for a few moments, untill one of them bumps right into me. then i go sit and smoke my lonely cigarette, hoping that they will play another good song.

*do you think it better to obsess and not to feel?*

-dollie-