anas voice

[_volted]

i dont wanna fall back
but i do
i want that pride i use to have
i want to be on everyones mind
I WANT SOMEONE TO NOTICE ME AND NOT YOU.
SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME.
WHY THE FUCK DOES EVERYONE ELESE GET NOTICED?
fuck.

you know what really is bothering me right now?
i have way to many clothes
but i wear like only 1 shirt
i really wish i was comfortable with myself,
damnit
i wish i was like you
i look up to you so much.

its almost 2AM and i have to get up at 8.
i cannot sleep anymore.
my stomache growls with pain
i do not do this on purpose i must say
at least i dont think so..
i, i, i dont know anymore. i keep remembering what my therapist is saying in my head.
but its getting blurry.
iv'e read about this.
right and wrong. anas voice.
shes trying to hold me down again
but seeing you all get boyfreinds and not me, makes me think im not right.
so i try to become better
change myself so i am right.
WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?

i think im going insane
i cannot take this anymore
im sorry for my shit
p.s. everyone should go here and listen
http://purevolume.com/clearview