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"it still amazes me that i am in a relationship. it'll cross my mind out of no where and it just seems so foreign to me. i think about bean and i think 'holy fucking shit. this is mine. and i can't touch anyone else. weirdddd.' lol. i love it though. "
that was from January 2007. haha. now i don't even think of my life with anyone else. now it would seem foreign to be without him. i read a ton of my old entries. reading them gives me such a different perspective about my life then and now. i was reading about when we first hooked up and i was reliving the whole thing in my head. its so amazing to me that such an awesome person loves ME. he would do anything for me. and i would do the same. i can't believe we're at 2 years and 3 months... almost half way to 5 years. oh my cheese. i keep thinking about how adorable our babies are going to be and i can't imagine creating life with anyone else.
we went out to dinner tonight. and it was so romantic. he kept reaching across the table to hold my hand, and he kept telling me how beautiful i am. i don't know if i could ever show him how much he means to me. no matter how much i tell him i love him it doesn't seem like enough. it makes me cry. lol. i downloaded my future wedding song.. you know, the song that you do your dance to. its always & forever by luther vandross. i love that song. and the lyrics are so perfect for us. he melts me with a smile. i wanna spend everyday with him. even if we fight, i can't stay mad after i smoke a bowl. haha. he just completely completes me.
i'm such a cheeser. reading my old posts is making me appreciate him so much more.... SEE, journaling is a good thing! i love it. n3rds unite! i've downloaded soooo much music in the past two days. i'm surprised my computer doesn't hate me yet.
i can't wait for life to get here. i'm applying at so many different places. i need a new job asap. everywhere that is hiring is in kerny mesa and miramar. i can't drive there everyday. hell no. as soon as i get a better paying job i'm getting a car. then i can move somewhere away from gay people. i'm so pissed, diana's lameo moved right down the street from me... AWESOME. that means i get to see them at the bar and at 7-11 and every fucking place. them= dogface. BLECH! fuck fat bitches with muffintop and hpv. and i heard her nasty pubic area looks like scabies. vomit. haha. and jimmy fucked that fat bitch. grossssssssss.
anywho. i wanna move to kearny mesa/clairemont/more northish. if not there, outta state... Chicago is what i'm pushin for. but bean is like NOOOO! sooo. i dunno. we'll figure it out when the time comes... i can't even figure out how you look for apartments or anything from across the country... but i guess just my tarded brain can't comprehend certain things.
well. have a good night guys... i don't even know if anyone reads this....
that was from January 2007. haha. now i don't even think of my life with anyone else. now it would seem foreign to be without him. i read a ton of my old entries. reading them gives me such a different perspective about my life then and now. i was reading about when we first hooked up and i was reliving the whole thing in my head. its so amazing to me that such an awesome person loves ME. he would do anything for me. and i would do the same. i can't believe we're at 2 years and 3 months... almost half way to 5 years. oh my cheese. i keep thinking about how adorable our babies are going to be and i can't imagine creating life with anyone else.
we went out to dinner tonight. and it was so romantic. he kept reaching across the table to hold my hand, and he kept telling me how beautiful i am. i don't know if i could ever show him how much he means to me. no matter how much i tell him i love him it doesn't seem like enough. it makes me cry. lol. i downloaded my future wedding song.. you know, the song that you do your dance to. its always & forever by luther vandross. i love that song. and the lyrics are so perfect for us. he melts me with a smile. i wanna spend everyday with him. even if we fight, i can't stay mad after i smoke a bowl. haha. he just completely completes me.
i'm such a cheeser. reading my old posts is making me appreciate him so much more.... SEE, journaling is a good thing! i love it. n3rds unite! i've downloaded soooo much music in the past two days. i'm surprised my computer doesn't hate me yet.
i can't wait for life to get here. i'm applying at so many different places. i need a new job asap. everywhere that is hiring is in kerny mesa and miramar. i can't drive there everyday. hell no. as soon as i get a better paying job i'm getting a car. then i can move somewhere away from gay people. i'm so pissed, diana's lameo moved right down the street from me... AWESOME. that means i get to see them at the bar and at 7-11 and every fucking place. them= dogface. BLECH! fuck fat bitches with muffintop and hpv. and i heard her nasty pubic area looks like scabies. vomit. haha. and jimmy fucked that fat bitch. grossssssssss.
anywho. i wanna move to kearny mesa/clairemont/more northish. if not there, outta state... Chicago is what i'm pushin for. but bean is like NOOOO! sooo. i dunno. we'll figure it out when the time comes... i can't even figure out how you look for apartments or anything from across the country... but i guess just my tarded brain can't comprehend certain things.
well. have a good night guys... i don't even know if anyone reads this....