good and bad...
so, went christmas shopping last weekend... I despise christmas chopping, being there, with an entire herd trying to go to the same stores because we really think it's the way to go... bleh! but we managed to find most of the christmas gifts so we'll live... another tragedy averted, life can get back to it's horrible self...
on sunday I invited my aunt/uncle and parents out to brunch, to thank them for helping us get the appartment fixed up when we started renting it, we found a very good Irish Pub which server Irish breakfast around noon... we followed it up with walking around antwerp, windowshopping... checking out Cartier, Dries van Noten, Kaat Tilly, Delvaux.... you know... the regular off the rack shops...
the rest of the week was pretty much same as usual up until yesterday afternoon... when I had my "Performance Appraisal"... it wasn't bad... it wasn't good... it was... mediocre... I Hate being mediocre... the first time in the years I work in this company that I wasn't able to turn things around in my favour... it may sound childish/whiney...
I didn't get slapped on the wrist for doing a bad job (If I deserve it, I can handle it...), I didn't get slapped on the wrist for being negative, a bad colleage... (same... truth, I can handle...)
I didn't get slapped on the wrist for not being billable enough (not my fault, they can find more interesting projects, and I'll do them)...
I didn't even get slapped on the wrist for shooting down a mission I was in... (something I did, but I had my reasons... and my boss told me I was right...)
I did on the other hand get slapped on the wrist for being "to rough around the edges" translation "brutally honest" if something bothers me, I tell them ... but then, and this is good... I'm being told... "personally I don't have a problem with it, I like it, but try to be more diplomatic..."
so they just needed to find a stick, and that was it... I never expected to be congratulated on a fantastic year, it wasn't one... I never expected to become the big #1 in the group... because I don't suck up to the correct people...
but it still hurts you know...
V for Vanity, I definately need to sin... and a nice hangover might be nice too...
on sunday I invited my aunt/uncle and parents out to brunch, to thank them for helping us get the appartment fixed up when we started renting it, we found a very good Irish Pub which server Irish breakfast around noon... we followed it up with walking around antwerp, windowshopping... checking out Cartier, Dries van Noten, Kaat Tilly, Delvaux.... you know... the regular off the rack shops...
the rest of the week was pretty much same as usual up until yesterday afternoon... when I had my "Performance Appraisal"... it wasn't bad... it wasn't good... it was... mediocre... I Hate being mediocre... the first time in the years I work in this company that I wasn't able to turn things around in my favour... it may sound childish/whiney...
I didn't get slapped on the wrist for doing a bad job (If I deserve it, I can handle it...), I didn't get slapped on the wrist for being negative, a bad colleage... (same... truth, I can handle...)
I didn't get slapped on the wrist for not being billable enough (not my fault, they can find more interesting projects, and I'll do them)...
I didn't even get slapped on the wrist for shooting down a mission I was in... (something I did, but I had my reasons... and my boss told me I was right...)
I did on the other hand get slapped on the wrist for being "to rough around the edges" translation "brutally honest" if something bothers me, I tell them ... but then, and this is good... I'm being told... "personally I don't have a problem with it, I like it, but try to be more diplomatic..."
so they just needed to find a stick, and that was it... I never expected to be congratulated on a fantastic year, it wasn't one... I never expected to become the big #1 in the group... because I don't suck up to the correct people...
but it still hurts you know...
V for Vanity, I definately need to sin... and a nice hangover might be nice too...