wow. last 10 days. wow.
let's just say that the last 10 days were probably one of the most amazing experiences i have ever had.
hands down.
wow.
we're talking about faith, about church, about the cross.
we're talking about love, about hope, about dreams.
we're talking about incredible moments and amazing people.
i can't believe it's over.
i've kinda been in a state of shock all afternoon... not too sure why, i can uuuuusually handle stuff like this. but i dunno.. the crying i did today was like none other. emotions flooding my mind, confused to the extreme. i know its not "over", i know we shouldnt be sad that its over but happy and thankful that it happened. but apart from that bs, leaving just felt wrong. and kinda hurt.
i was taken out of a very close to perfect world and brought back into life, as far from perfect as it gets.
as Belcher said the first night: "This is the way the world should be."
and i dunno... i guess being put back into the real world made me realize how much humanity really does suck. and how much i wish i could change ALL of it, and fix it. get it back to "the way the world should be."
but yeah now i really truly understand what they were talking about yesterday in the "preparing for home" discussion, about being shocked, and dazed for a while.
seeing my family was all right, but i wanted it to be like the family at crossroad.
seeing my room was all right, but i wanted it to be like that crappy closet of a room at crossroad.
seeing my cd player and tv and aim was all right, but i didnt want to use them, like at crossroad.
i really just wanted to relax in silence, reading through my notes, looking through the kick ass pictures, not really talking to anyone.
ochay so i guess im being kinda negative and pessimistic regarding my return home.... but gimme a break, its a blog, i can do crap like this.
ugh this mood sucks. i no yike eet.
i'll try to snap out of it.
*tries to snap out of it*
OCHAY!!
SOOO you wanna know whyyyy exactly CrossRoad was amazing????
^^^ THIS is why CrossRoad was amazing.
cuz these people kick incredible, mucho amounts of arse.
no joke.
they are some of the sweetest, smartest, most faithful, hilarious, loving people i have ever met.
** so instead of listing a million memories of the insane 10 days... i'm just gonna leave the lj clan a lil song that the hott crossroadians wrote cuz we are awesome. but i'm gotta figure out all the words, so be patient kay? kay. ha.**
(basically i wrote that as a self-reminder cuz im an idiot and will forget...8) )
Vanizzle825: and ugh, i dunno, i cant really explain anything to people yet
ExcessiveGreek: yeah, im jus like saying what happened
ExcessiveGreek: i cant like say how it affected me
ExcessiveGreek: like having breakfast with a homeless person, you can say what happened, but you cant explain it
ExcessiveGreek: wow, crossroad was like soo unbelievably awesome, and theres nothing like it, you need to expierience it to kno it
^^ yup. thats EXACTLY it.
no matter how much i hate this song and it drives me crazy... i have to say it does the job perfectly...
Some times in our lives, we all have pain, we all have sorrow.
But, if we are wise, we know that there's always tomorrow.
Lean on me, when your not strong, and I'll be your friend,
I'll help you carry on. For, it won't be long, 'till I'm gonna need
somebody to lean on.
Please, swallow your pride, if I have
things, you need to borrow. For no one can fill those of your
needs, that you won't let show.
You just call on me, brother when you need a hand,
We all need somebody to lean on.
I just might have a problem that you'll understand,
we all need sombody to lean on.
Lean on me, when your not strong, and I'll be your friend,
I'll help you carry on. For, it won't be long, 'till I'm gonna need
somebody to lean on.
You just call on me, brother when you need a hand,
we all need somebody to lean on.
I just might have a problem that you'll understand,
we all need sombody to lean on.
If, there is a load, you have to bear, that you can't carry,
I'm right up the road, I'll share your load, if you just call me.
*sigh*
one time, at CrossRoad, a bunch of orthodox kids came together to have one of the most amazing times of their lives.
ochay well talk to y'all later byee.
:)