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i lost my little kitten Butters. im sad. i hope it shows up. i havent seen it since this morning when i put it out before school. i feel really crappy. my legs really hurt from cheerleading practice yesterday. you kno what i really hate is when i say my legs hurt from cheerleading and they are like thats dumb cheerleading is wussy. it really pisses me off. i have practice tomorrow too. and im pretty sure my legs will still hurt. i wanna top so bad but i dont think i will. i dont think anyone wants me to top. ill prolly just stand in front and tumble like usual. i dont know why i put myself through this. i love cheerleading but i hate my coach and i get hurt and there are some gay ass rules that go along with it for example no bright nail polish at football games. what the hell is that. and i feel so ugly sometimes when im out there with those girls. they all look perfect. nice skin, a flat stomach, not a fat ass. unlike me. but i so have them beat with the hair thing. and the teeth. none of them have like straight teeth. but one thing i know ive got that is better than all theirs is my boyfriend. he is so wonderful. i sit with all those cheerleaders and they talk about how their boyfriends had sex with some other girl this weekend and how all they do is sit on their ass and smoke. what the hell is that? and i sit there and think i am never going to have to worry about that cuz my boyfriend loves me. and i know no one is going to read any of this beacause no one ever does but i just some times feel like i need to talk to someone and no one is there to talk to so i have live journal. he he. well im going to go work on my jumps cuz they suck and every one elses are good. nighty night all.