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i just broke up with marty... it was the hardest thing i have ever done, and something i never wanted to do. i know it sounds bad but did it for his own good.... i don't think it would be for my own good seeing as i'm in a state. can't stop crying... he told me he felt like he owed it to me to go out with me, and he said he didn't really regret the relationship, but yeah.... all the vibes i was getting was regret, sadness.... i hadn't seen him in a week and when i suggested he come over, he just started growing dsitant... i care about him so much! and wanted to stay with him, but he needs this right now... he needs to be single so he can work on making himself happy. i hoped i could replace caitlyn so he wouldn't think about her, but it made things worse, and i realize i was being selfish in asking him out in the first place, i should have known it was a bad idea for him... lifes hard, but it's harder for him... i do get some solace knowing that atleast we will go back to being the way we were, close friends... he needs a friend right now, not a girlfriend....