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hmmmm.. whats new? i had a swim meet last weekend that went alright. we went to sweet tomatoes afterwards, the season was worthwhile afterall. then on monday i went to ft lauderdale, tuesday the keys, and came home today. beach tomorrow eh?
.tonight was a mixture of things between me and a few other people.
happiness, sadness, regret, missing, mistakes, security, friends?
i dont know what to do with myself.. i know whats the best for both of us but i just know we dont want to face that, we should. me and brad went for a drive tonight, it felt really good. lately i thought that a lot of my friends just gave up on keeping in touch, but not him. we can talk about anything, even nothing, for hours. its kind of sinking in how much things are going to be different when school starts next tuesday. brads not gonna take me home from school, walk me to lunch.. our chances of working together will be pretty much the best we'll get to seeing each other on a regular basis.
F that. i dont want to deal with changes again, i've been through enough in a year, or so i think? we'll see.
.tonight was a mixture of things between me and a few other people.
happiness, sadness, regret, missing, mistakes, security, friends?
i dont know what to do with myself.. i know whats the best for both of us but i just know we dont want to face that, we should. me and brad went for a drive tonight, it felt really good. lately i thought that a lot of my friends just gave up on keeping in touch, but not him. we can talk about anything, even nothing, for hours. its kind of sinking in how much things are going to be different when school starts next tuesday. brads not gonna take me home from school, walk me to lunch.. our chances of working together will be pretty much the best we'll get to seeing each other on a regular basis.
F that. i dont want to deal with changes again, i've been through enough in a year, or so i think? we'll see.