Not Doing It
I shouldn't have to stop writing or get a new name because my ex doesn't want me reading his LJ and doesn't want to read mine. Jerk. Its the only way for me to find out about what going on since he doesn't talk to me. Oh well, I think its best because it'll just hurt. I miss him dearly and wish it wouldn't come up to this but I'll lie with it. He was the only one that reads these so I guess this is like done for. Only to get my anger out LJ I guess. Little by little he'll forget about me then he will forget me completely...I know it'll happen. I'm just someone who wasn't given another chance after seeing I fucked up. I Fucked up bad and look what happened. This is why I cry Phil. This is why I can't get over it. I let the best thing in my life go..and let the relationship crumble...I want to start over and make it up to you...My chance is gone and now I'm afraid I'll never be with someone as nice and understanding as you...I fucked up...I just wish I could of made it better..nows the time to move on and live with that mistake.