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17 and single. could this possibly get any worse?
oh yes. it definatly can. i like someones boyfriend. that is much worse. thats not going to get me anywhere. but if he wasnt so damn wonderful I would never have this problem. he cant help that hes a great, outgoing, caring, and a fucking hot guy. no, he cant. and i cant help that i want him. dammit. i am seriously going to have an emotional break down... and no one can help me but him. and he dont even know. and GOD i want to tell him. but i dont know how.. and im afraid to tell him, because i dont want things to change... but i REALLY want to tell him because maybe he feels the same.. i mean.. all they do is fight?!... thats all they ever do.. he'd be so much better off without her.. but i know i know.... its not that easy.. bla bla bull shit..
**oh yea,.. side note.. idontcareifthisdoenstmakesensetoyou...cause like... im only writing this in here.. cause i have no one to talk to**
anyways..
i dont know what to do anymore... actually.. my plan is..
Plan:::
- I need to get him by himself... like at a party or something.. have a ton of fun... for real... and like./... JUST LET IT ALL OUT.. and possibly be drunk while doing it.. so it wouldnt really matter if he turned me down..
..yea i know... "there are better ways" well fuck you! this is MY way.
i am going now.
have fun.
aaaaahhhh