lemme tell you a story
okay this story starts out the last week of may...see this girl found out that two guys liked her...one being her current boyfriend well duh, and the other being her ex. now this girl of course because she's just who she is realizes that she likes the two guys. she consults many of her friends...who are the most holier than thou persons in the world, and they all say that there is nothing wrong with liking two guys. but she knows that she has to choose one, because its not fair. so that week she thinks and she thinks and she thinks, and she can't decide. that week she goes out with her boyfriend twice. and she has a great time and thinks that everything is going well. so she leaves for cali on sunday. and as she is driving to cali she realizes that the one she wants is her boyfriend. so she emails her ex and tell him that she has decided, but that she will tell him in person when she gets back. so the entire time why she is in cali, everytime that she calls her boyfriend, cause he isn't calling her, he doesn't talk to her. and on top of that he stops saying that he loves her. and he stops calling her by her nickname. she is confused. after saturday she thought that everything was going well. so she gets back into town. when she gets back she tries to talk to her boyfriend but he isn't picking up his phone. so she makes plans with ex for tuesday. then she talks to a mutual friend of her and her boyfriend to see if anything is wrong, because she's worried and she thinks that he is going to break up with her. he says that there is nothing wrong and to forget about it. so she does. and she goes and has a fun time with her ex the next day. she tells him what she has decided and he is okay with it. then as he is droppping her off, he kisses her and she kisses him back. they know that it is wrong but it was an accident and spur of the moment. then comes thurs. her boyfriend is coming over to pick her up. and she realizes with a sinking suspicion that it is to break up with her. how did she know this? because he stopped saying that he loved her. he didn't even sound like he wanted to talk to her. but you know, she still thinks that there is a slim chance that when she tells him what's wrong (he did ask) that he will hug her and tell her her fears are for naught. not the case. he has indeed come over to break up with her, and so she cries, because she is sad and wishes that it weren't so. although if he hadn't broken up with her she would have told him because that wouldn't be fair. but she decides that since they are breaking up that she might as well just keep it a secret. that night her friend matt comes over to pick up something. she is still kinda not very happy about the whole thing. in fact she feels like crap. she doesn't understand what happened and how someone can just stop loving someone and what a shitty reason he gave her. then she's like though its okay i cheated on him before she knew what she was saying. matt offers to tell him and she takes him up on the offer. that night though, she relents and realizes that she was just angry when she said that and asks him not to tell. but he must not get her message cause her now ex boyfriend finds out. he calls her the day after and she realizes how much she screw up the whole thing and that she hurt him and that she wishes she could take it back. but she can't. she wishes that he could know that she truely is sorry and hopes that he can one day forgive her. she never meant to hurt him. she guesses his friends were right when they said to worry about a atheist.