my heart will go on....
ok, so here goes:
<3 college & scholarships:
* haven't finished applying to bcf yet. i definitely will this week though.
* just finished applying to ruth eckerd and almost pooped in my pants because i thought i'd mailed it to the wrong address, which it turns out i didn't (praise God).
<3 friends:
* i've had some mini-issues with jealousy when it comes to my friends and guys, but then i realized that that's dumb. my friends deserve to be happy, and one day, God will introduce me to my perfect guy and i will fall head over heels and be completely happy!
* kelly's coming home! actually, she probably is home by now, and that makes me so freaking happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3 school:
* guys-n-dolls makes me wanna hurl.
* i hate that i have homework over the break and i have to build a mousetrap car .....wtf?!
* stupid brit book for haley's class.....argh.....
* i hate how senior year costs so much....like all-state, and app. fees, and yearbook, and cap & gown....grrrrrr.
<3 church:
* my relationship with jesus is like a birthday candle that's been lit for 45 minutes...almost gone. this makes me sad because i love him....i need to confess sins....start praying again....and read the Bible again.
* i have a solo w/ choir and a duet in church on sunday...my grandparents aren't saved and they're coming to listen....PLEASE LET THEM BE IMPACTED FOR JESUS!
* i wanna go on this mission's trip to berlin this summer....but i need MONEY!
<3 general:
* it seems like everything's bothering me or depressing me lately. i'm constantly feeling inadequate when other seniors get picked for stuff and i am overlooked. then i feel selfish and conceited for thinking i would get picked over them.
* i feel ugly. fat. far away from God. everytime i go to church, i can't bear to be around my old church friends...i feel like we're going in different directions, and i think i'm the one going the wrong way.
* the funny thing is that i never stopped loving jesus. i just stopped pursuing Him. which is ten times as worse, because that's not even an excuse.
<3 college & scholarships:
* haven't finished applying to bcf yet. i definitely will this week though.
* just finished applying to ruth eckerd and almost pooped in my pants because i thought i'd mailed it to the wrong address, which it turns out i didn't (praise God).
<3 friends:
* i've had some mini-issues with jealousy when it comes to my friends and guys, but then i realized that that's dumb. my friends deserve to be happy, and one day, God will introduce me to my perfect guy and i will fall head over heels and be completely happy!
* kelly's coming home! actually, she probably is home by now, and that makes me so freaking happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3 school:
* guys-n-dolls makes me wanna hurl.
* i hate that i have homework over the break and i have to build a mousetrap car .....wtf?!
* stupid brit book for haley's class.....argh.....
* i hate how senior year costs so much....like all-state, and app. fees, and yearbook, and cap & gown....grrrrrr.
<3 church:
* my relationship with jesus is like a birthday candle that's been lit for 45 minutes...almost gone. this makes me sad because i love him....i need to confess sins....start praying again....and read the Bible again.
* i have a solo w/ choir and a duet in church on sunday...my grandparents aren't saved and they're coming to listen....PLEASE LET THEM BE IMPACTED FOR JESUS!
* i wanna go on this mission's trip to berlin this summer....but i need MONEY!
<3 general:
* it seems like everything's bothering me or depressing me lately. i'm constantly feeling inadequate when other seniors get picked for stuff and i am overlooked. then i feel selfish and conceited for thinking i would get picked over them.
* i feel ugly. fat. far away from God. everytime i go to church, i can't bear to be around my old church friends...i feel like we're going in different directions, and i think i'm the one going the wrong way.
* the funny thing is that i never stopped loving jesus. i just stopped pursuing Him. which is ten times as worse, because that's not even an excuse.