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"There are no more barriers to cross.
All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane,
the vicious and the evil,
all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it
I have now surpassed.
My pain is constant and sharp
and I do not hope for a better world for anyone,
in fact
I want my pain to be inflicted on others.
I want no one to escape,
but even after admitting this there is no catharsis,
my punishment continues to elude me
and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself;
no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling.
This
confession
has
meant
nothing.