its been awhile..

[_unsaid_]

haven't been here awhile.
not sure why.
I think I just got tired of writing out my complaints.

-1. it made me a complainer.
-2. writing it here makes it permanently here, like maybe these problems could never go away, & that scared me.

I'm back now.
with g o o o d news.
I met a guy named jaysin.
who is perfect.
he never forgot my name.
he tells me I'm beautiful in the most clever ways.
always knows what I want.
always wants I can give.
never any thing more..
he has a smile of a sneaky saint.
eyes that make me smile a whole new species of smiles.
his hands lace with mine like puzzle pieces.
he is always there when it counts.
& when it doesn't.

school isn't soo bad.
I'm trying hard to go everyday.
its a shitty idea at 6:00am.
but once I get there...
it reeeaally isn't so bad.
I have 4 periods.
If it got easier, it wouldn't be school.
I don't have any enemies.
I don't have many friends.
but I like it that way.

still no job.
help me.

I'm reeally okay.
But I'm never really okay..
Inless liana is okay.
so I'm trying.
<3