Don't look no farther, I'm right here.
So Friday I went home with Lindsay after school, we hung out there, then Chris picked us up & dropped us off at my house around 7. We had to ride the moped back to her house, though, to get our scrapbook. LOL. We were going to go to Brett's party, but it was too late, Linds didn't really feel the greatest. So we worked on our scrapbook a little bit, ate some pizza, then came online. Linds fell asleep & I talked to Ryan on the phone for a while, then fell asleep. Woke up Saturday morning, Linds wasn't really talking to me, so we went to my sister's soccer game, then I drove back to Lindsay's. We basically sat around all afternoon, talked to Logie, Rob & Ryan trying to figure out what to do. Her grandmother & little cousin, Gabrielle, stopped by. She was absolutely adorable! She was the cutest thing. ♥ LaShea took us to the hospital to visit her boyfriend, Jared. Later that night, we helped LaShea, Jared, her friend Jessica & her boyfriend Jason get ready for PROM! They all looked great :) Then Linds & I stated getting hyper, we ate pizza & ice cream slushies & she was trying to scare me, making noises from The Grudge & The Ring... I was freaking out! LOL. It was hilarious. Then we went to sleep at around 11:30. We woke up at 10 this morning, ate some pancakes & then my mom came to get me. I was going to go to Publix with her, but I was really tired, so instead, she brought me home.
Alright, well I'm about to go eat. :) I'll update more later. Hope everyone had a great weeekend. ♥
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What do you do when u feel the world around you move & you're stuck in one place? How do you feel when your body's numb? When you can't trust anyone & you walk around with a piercing glare. What do you do when you feel scared? What do you do to make it go away?
Feeling stuck somewhere in the middle of this big mess. Looking into my eyes, but you don't see whats inside. Cry every night, and make myself bleed, just to know what's left of me. Telling myself I am strong & I'll be okay, but missing you more and more each day. Feeling betrayed by your friends, not knowing if they really mean what they say. Feeling incomplete with every word that I speak. I can feel myself shattering. I'm breaking myself away from this place, this place I call my home.
Hating myself with every breath I take, cause I'm never good enough. You make me feel like I don't matter at all, but with all your hurtful words, I refuse to fall. Scared to know where I'm running to so fast- cause I'm diving into this head first.
I'm losing my faith, I'm drifting away, I'm stuck in a daze, I just need to get away.
My mom says she doens't know me anymore. My sister cries that she's scared. My dad tries to understand, but he doesn't know. My friends can't find the words to say, Try to make it all fade away, but it all stays. Feeling so mixed up, staring at the mirror, trying so hard to see the girl standing crying in front of me. Why is it so hard to understand? [ /edit ]