_love at first light.
another night full of light. i love this night. today i have been singing stars' midnight coward nonstop, and been singing and listening to it while walking towards mag:net highstreet and i knew it's going to be a wonderful night (and a wonderful life!).
it feels good to be surrounded with so much people, with so much light, and to not think of heavy things for a while. you know, just to feel the buzz that people are making in the room: meeting new people (people you haven't seen anywhere, not in gigs, not in the places you frequently go to, NEW PEOPLE! haha), camera flashes everywhere (it's a camera party after all) and laughter and introductions and the newness of things. and to be surprised that it is a small world after all: going to a party alone where you thought you wouldn't know anyone then bumping into your after-college best friend (that's YOU trisha!!! haha) with the new pornographers' song, her favorite, playing in the background. and also our netherlands and sweden pb&j song, truly cosmic. seeing a friend you thought was in california (that's you dale!)(namali lang ako ng sakay ng bus). and talking with bryce and bryan before their set(lumolomo-lomo ka parin pala)(wala rin kaming kilala dito heheheh).
chrisdafox, trisha's friend and lover hehehe said he saw me in fully booked that afternoon going down the escalators, and he said to trisha "that girl has a nice dress" but trisha didnt see me. it was cosmic because we already "met" before we met. trisha pointed this out. crossed paths, intersected, in the same cosmic moment! i love things like that. maybe you already "met" your best friend, your crush, your soulmate, even before you were introduced. isn't that neatoooo?
i saw chiara also! we became best friends tonight! haha we were wondering the same thing: why we never became close friends in college when we like almost all the same things. she said something that stuck to me. i asked her if she's single and she said yes and now, she's discovering that she has a lot of interests that she didn't know before when she was with someone. and now she's doing and pursuing them. i realized that i am the opposite of that. i have been single and with myself for the longest time that i am now so attuned to myself - what i like, what i want to do, what i desire, what my dreams are. and it's always been about myself, and i wonder how it is like to be someone for another? to not completely focus on yourself all the time, which is what i'm so used to doing now. to have space inside of you for another's dreams, goals, wishes, likes. will sweden be that important then? is love like that? it must be a really different world, one i want to learn and be in...
ang dami ko namang best friend. hahaha soultwin you know you're my truebestfriend, like truegel! hahaha <3
and woooow. when i was about to leave (my lola cai said, you must leave when parties are at their peak, so you'll remember the best of it.) i saw him, my stranger crush in the green jacket. some of my friends of friends know him, but we were never introduced. i was just telling chris and trisha about him in the cupcake shop before, and now he is suddenly there! magic. my life is made up of moments like that. two-second gazes from across the room of crowded people. you hold it for exactly that span of time, and in that moment EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE, and then both of you look away and move on.
love is all around, can you feeeeeel it? maybe my true love is just around the corner... can you feel iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit?
(and i won a prize too! a very fancy roll of expired film and a gift certificate from digiprint! )
it feels good to be surrounded with so much people, with so much light, and to not think of heavy things for a while. you know, just to feel the buzz that people are making in the room: meeting new people (people you haven't seen anywhere, not in gigs, not in the places you frequently go to, NEW PEOPLE! haha), camera flashes everywhere (it's a camera party after all) and laughter and introductions and the newness of things. and to be surprised that it is a small world after all: going to a party alone where you thought you wouldn't know anyone then bumping into your after-college best friend (that's YOU trisha!!! haha) with the new pornographers' song, her favorite, playing in the background. and also our netherlands and sweden pb&j song, truly cosmic. seeing a friend you thought was in california (that's you dale!)(namali lang ako ng sakay ng bus). and talking with bryce and bryan before their set(lumolomo-lomo ka parin pala)(wala rin kaming kilala dito heheheh).
chrisdafox, trisha's friend and lover hehehe said he saw me in fully booked that afternoon going down the escalators, and he said to trisha "that girl has a nice dress" but trisha didnt see me. it was cosmic because we already "met" before we met. trisha pointed this out. crossed paths, intersected, in the same cosmic moment! i love things like that. maybe you already "met" your best friend, your crush, your soulmate, even before you were introduced. isn't that neatoooo?
i saw chiara also! we became best friends tonight! haha we were wondering the same thing: why we never became close friends in college when we like almost all the same things. she said something that stuck to me. i asked her if she's single and she said yes and now, she's discovering that she has a lot of interests that she didn't know before when she was with someone. and now she's doing and pursuing them. i realized that i am the opposite of that. i have been single and with myself for the longest time that i am now so attuned to myself - what i like, what i want to do, what i desire, what my dreams are. and it's always been about myself, and i wonder how it is like to be someone for another? to not completely focus on yourself all the time, which is what i'm so used to doing now. to have space inside of you for another's dreams, goals, wishes, likes. will sweden be that important then? is love like that? it must be a really different world, one i want to learn and be in...
ang dami ko namang best friend. hahaha soultwin you know you're my truebestfriend, like truegel! hahaha <3
and woooow. when i was about to leave (my lola cai said, you must leave when parties are at their peak, so you'll remember the best of it.) i saw him, my stranger crush in the green jacket. some of my friends of friends know him, but we were never introduced. i was just telling chris and trisha about him in the cupcake shop before, and now he is suddenly there! magic. my life is made up of moments like that. two-second gazes from across the room of crowded people. you hold it for exactly that span of time, and in that moment EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE, and then both of you look away and move on.
love is all around, can you feeeeeel it? maybe my true love is just around the corner... can you feel iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit?
(and i won a prize too! a very fancy roll of expired film and a gift certificate from digiprint! )