make it stop

[_unhappysmile]

i hate failing. at anything.
i keep thinking about that one time
last year during track season, when
i had to run the 100 meters.
i was sitting there on the blocks,
ready for that gun to blow.
then all of a sudden i blanked out
and my mind went off someplace else,
then the gun goes off, and startles me.
i run, i run as fast as i can go. but my
body doesnt wanna go, fast.
i push and push, but meanwhile
everyone else is passing me.
tears start to flow from my eyes
at 50 meters, knowing that i wont have it.
i come dead last. only to run off the track,
and out of the stadium. and run, far, far away.