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I'm going to Mexico today, part of me doesnt really want to go, at least not right now...the timing is bad. I have so much that I need to do, and when I get back from Mexico my summer is basically over because I start school like the next week. I feel like I didnt get anything accomplished this summer, my previous summers were all so much fun. I mean this summer wasnt bad but it wasnt exactly great either. It was nice seeing all my friends who have been away at college,and catching up with everything going on in thier lives but it was also weird becuase we just are not as close. I'm not really close with anyone anymore. There are so many people that I dont even really talk to anymore. There were people that I would hang out with like every day/night and now I dont even talk to them. I feel like I'm not even that close with my best friend, shes been up at college for the past year, and has made a whole bunch of new friends. I've only seen her a couple times this summer, we used to spend our entire summers together. We call eachother all the time and catch up on eachothers lives but its just not the same. I just dont like loosing contact with people, but I know its my fault. I dont call people and keep in touch with them and I'm sorry, I'm sorry if your one of those people that I dont talk to as much anymore or hang out with anymore. I dont like growing up, I wish I could just live in Nevernever land and be a kid forever. I hate having to be responsible and having to work and go to college. I just want to go back in time when we didnt have to worry about anything, we would just drive around in our parents cars, singing along to the music, just being stupid but having so much fun, I want to go back to the times where i thought people never lied and I believed everything they said. I just wish things would be how they used to, or that I could fast forward my life to a time where I already have everything figured out, and I have a family and a career. I just dont like how things are right now. I dont like growing up. I dont like loosing contact with friends and I especially dont like crying:( I'm sorry.