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why does it seem that everytime something seems to be going extremely well, i always find some way to mess it up? to all those reading this, i'm sorry for everything that i've done that has either upset u, angered u, disgusted u, or just mad u feel bad. that is not my intent, i wish everyone could be happy, but i'm human... i make mistakes and have to deal with them. well this entry is one way i'm trying to do that.
i can't stand myself sometimes. sometimes i just wish i had never existed. there are days when it seems like nothing is going right. I can be a jerk sometimes, i know that, but i do my best to prevent myself from being that person. lemme tell u, it doesn't always work out like that. i guess i can just be that stupid. i'm sorry everyone for this negative outlook, but it's gotta be said. i can be really stupid sometimes.
one last thing...i wanna tell everyone that i love jen and that there isn't a thing that i wouldn't do for her. she is the most wonderful person in my life, and i wouldn't want to do anything that would make her mad at me. i see myself wanting to spend the rest of my life with her... hopefully she feels the same. she's so special and has made my life so much better ever since she entered it. jen, thank u if ur reading this, i love u.
i can't stand myself sometimes. sometimes i just wish i had never existed. there are days when it seems like nothing is going right. I can be a jerk sometimes, i know that, but i do my best to prevent myself from being that person. lemme tell u, it doesn't always work out like that. i guess i can just be that stupid. i'm sorry everyone for this negative outlook, but it's gotta be said. i can be really stupid sometimes.
one last thing...i wanna tell everyone that i love jen and that there isn't a thing that i wouldn't do for her. she is the most wonderful person in my life, and i wouldn't want to do anything that would make her mad at me. i see myself wanting to spend the rest of my life with her... hopefully she feels the same. she's so special and has made my life so much better ever since she entered it. jen, thank u if ur reading this, i love u.