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Well it's been awhile since I wrote in here. Probably because I feel like there's nothing really important that happend to even write about. I just wish I could find happiness in life. I feel like nothing is going to make me happy. I don't talk to my friends about it because sometimes I feel like they don't really care to listen. They always seem to have better things to talk about. I just really wish I could find my way out of this state of mind. I don't even know what I feel anymore. I'm sick of being friends with people only because my friends are friends with them. I feel like if my friend wasn't around then that other friend really wasn't one. I just wish that I had some of the friendships that have ended out of nowhere still here. I miss being me. This sure as hell isn't me. And most of the people I talk to don't even know anything is wrong. Maybe because I hide it a little bit to well. I don't know all I know is I want out of this situation and everything I try doesn't seem to help. It hurts inside to know that someone I truely loved is with someone else. And whenever I try to talk about it to anyone they tell me to stop talking or thinking about it. But I can't help it maybe because they have never been in that situation. I don't know but I just wish someone would realize how I feel. I feel so empty inside right now I just don't know what to do.... Well some of you are probably thinking man I don't miss her writing in her journal. But I needed to write this all done because I can't seem to talk to anyone about it.....