nothing, NOTHING, else can go wrong.
It's always a lose, lose situation with me.
I don't talk to Kyle as much, the ONE person that can keep me sane.
Watching my mother suffer in pain and knowing there is NOTHING I can do about it, makes me feel like complete shit, I love her more then life itself. I don't know what I would do without her, ever. I don't want to know. She keeps crying, she can't sleep. She's pretty much high, because her medication. But her medications not working.
Yesterday, I called 411, and I asked for " Diane Bradford ", and I meant to say, " Douglas Bradford ", then I made myself cry. Because I've already lost one mother. Oh god, please.
I need a good cry, and I hope after this entry I'll feel empty.
And I will be able to fill myself up with happier thoughts.
I'm sick of loosing people I love.
I'm sick of people walking in and out of my life.
But, it's always going to be that way, always.
I am trying SO hard to be a better person, I am trying SO hard.
I am honestly doing all in my power.
But, it was easier when I didn't care about people.
Sorry, about that bitching and complaining.
I don't talk to Kyle as much, the ONE person that can keep me sane.
Watching my mother suffer in pain and knowing there is NOTHING I can do about it, makes me feel like complete shit, I love her more then life itself. I don't know what I would do without her, ever. I don't want to know. She keeps crying, she can't sleep. She's pretty much high, because her medication. But her medications not working.
Yesterday, I called 411, and I asked for " Diane Bradford ", and I meant to say, " Douglas Bradford ", then I made myself cry. Because I've already lost one mother. Oh god, please.
I need a good cry, and I hope after this entry I'll feel empty.
And I will be able to fill myself up with happier thoughts.
I'm sick of loosing people I love.
I'm sick of people walking in and out of my life.
But, it's always going to be that way, always.
I am trying SO hard to be a better person, I am trying SO hard.
I am honestly doing all in my power.
But, it was easier when I didn't care about people.
Sorry, about that bitching and complaining.