Thank you god!
I KNOW THIS IS LONG. BUT EVERYONE PLEASE READ. VERY IMPORTANT.
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Tonight was supposed to be so much fun. Me, Sara, Bridget were all going to bridget's house. we were gonna hang out with dan and bobby after the game. me and sara went to the game to watch bridget cheer. bobby picked us up and we went to meet dan. we were having so much fun and then the unthinkable happened. we got into the worst car accident i have ever seen. (go ahead everyone say it.. omg krystal got in another accident) well this time i wasnt driving and there was nothing i could do to prevent it. I dont know how everyone is still alive. we should all be dead right now. and thank god that we arn't. he was definitly looking out for us tonight. i dont know how we all made it through. all i can say is that i am so glad that we did bc i dont think i would have been able to live if anyone of those people would have been seriously hurt.
The weird thing is when we were driving i kept getting nervous and jumpy about things. like i would be like omg he almost hit us and then a white mini van pulled out of a parking space in front of us and i jumped and then bobby kinda went over the white line a little and i like jumped again. and then right before the accident when i saw how fast dan was driving i said "hes gonna get into an accident" (i never thought it was gonna actually happen. let alone with us) and at that very same time sara was thinking about car accidents. and then it happened. there were so many signs leading up to it. i should have seen it coming. it was no ones fault and no ones intentions that is why it is called an accident. everything happens for a reason i do believe that this happened for a reason.
I know that i have made mistakes in the past and i know that i have been very mean and done very hurtful things and said very uncalled for things. but everyone makes mistakes and you learn from them and you learn to move on. and this is me moving on. i am starting over and im gonna fix all of my mistakes. if i have ever hurt you in anyway i am deeply sorry and i hope that you can accept that.
Before tonight i didnt believe in god. and this showed me there really is a god. if there was no god i doubt any of us would be alive here tonight. with the conditions of both the cars we should all be dead. god was defintily looking out for us tonight. this was his way of showing us that you dont need to lie, sneak, cheat, drugs, alcohol, or anything of the sort to have fun. if you have to lie about it you shouldnt be doing it anyways. god gave us all another chance tonight. a chance to fix things and make it better. and so that is was i intend to do. i am done. with everything. i will admit to the things i have done in the past and i will admit that they were a mistake. but now i am moving on and starting fresh. no i cant change those things that i did. and i cant change the things people say about me. or the things people believe about me. but i can change me and the way i am. and that is exactly what i am intend to do.
So thank you god for all the mistakes i have made and all the mean things i have said and all the bad situationsi have been in. i have learned from every single experience. i would not be who i am today without each of those. thank you god for tonight. it has made me realize the kind of person that i want to be. it has made me want to change how i am and to become a better person.
Bridget. You are my best friend. i love you so much. i dont know what i would have done if something would have happened to you. i dont think i could get through life without you. even though im graduating this year i never want to lose you. i always want you there. no matter what i know i can always count on you and i love you for that. thank you for being you. i love you.
Sara. i know that we use to hate each other and that we just recently became friends but i can tell this is the beginning to very close, long friendship. i love you and i am so glad that you are okay. i dont know what i would do if something would have happend to you. if you ever need anything just know that i am always here for you and nothing can stand in the way of our friendship.
always remember that everything happens for a reason. and if ANYONE ever needs anything i am here for you. even if you just need someone to talk to. i dont care if i dont know you or if you think i dont like you or if we are friends feel free to call, im , comment anything i am always here. never take life forgranted bc you never know when something unexpected could happen and take the life of you or someone you love.
Amen.