...this is gunna be long
ok well let me start from the top....my aprents took my phone to get it upgraded n so my friend said she was gunna tell mer her punishment at dominican n she would call me n so later on brett said he was comin over but he didnt wanna wake my mom cuz it was 10 so he just didnt come...n then i went to bed...i woke up n got 5 voicemails from my friend saying that she was expelled...right then n there i sat there n cried my mom sat there n cried with me n i told her what happened we sat in the parking lot waiting for the carpool to come n just cried...see its different for me....my brother was my hero i looked up to him n everything he did...we had the best memories...he used to always sing lets kill barney n let me stay up late when he babysat n made me promis not to tell n we would watch bevis n butthead n watch billy maddison..i remember onetime when I was little I couldn’t read n he wrote a note n he said it said Kathleen the little princess n taped it to me n I went to show mom n it actually said Kathleen the little dork I always would walk on his back at night n at night when I was scared I would crawl into his bed n he would play all my life on repeat….n when I was always talkative on our cartrips he would play whats it gunna be n let me listen to it…he had at least 60 cds…..but the thing was is that no matter what kind of person he was he was something I always admired n loved…I remember many times waking up around midnight to go get tony from the police n my parents screamin at him all night n me cryin…he was always getting into something…one day we went to eat at applebees as we do every Friday n when we came home I went in tonys room n my parents called me in and told me tony was leavin for st louis for good…..i remember I locked myself in my room….n the thing is everytime I think of my friend I think of my parents telling me tony wasn’t gunna be here tom….it made me so upset….the reason was stupid just like my friend…ive had 4 ppl in my life make stupid decisions….n it hurts because it affects me but the thing is that…they can change n they always do…my brother is an awesome photagrapher for all the name brand n big shot companys……n the other ppl are just as successful and mean the world to me…the thing that upsets me is that I wish tony would have stayed because he meant the world to me n him leavin kinda took away memories that could have been made…. n thinking about it just makes me cry…another thing that’s been botherin me is that ppl cant judge if they don’t know them….they don’t know if they deserve to be there or not….because everyone deserves a second chance….n ppl just sayin she doesn’t deserves it kills me inside because it reminds me of how my brother deserved it n I know my friend deserve it well after school I went shoppin saw Hannah just looking at her made me wanna cry….i promised wed always be friends…n then I went home chilled with Christy ben charles brian n jeremy n ben threw a casadilla at mrs calderos car n had to go apologize it was soooo FUNNY…nyways after that I ate crawfish with Christy and then came home took a shower n brett came over we watched a movie n we kinda talked about what happened n of course wouldn’t u know I cried….but that’s why I love him cuz hes always there for me even at my worst…..nyways sooo then he left n I went to sleep I got up cleaned n then painted a stripe on my room it was fun cuz I bonded with my madre…n now im waiting for katelyn caroline n ellen to pick me up and then we are gunna go see the ring two with brett david n some other dude I forget his name…but ya sooo the reason of this live journal was to get my feelings out and to express to ppl that are reading this that its my feelings n to respect them n don’t judge ppl when u don’t know them because everyone deserves a 2nd chance n everyone is a good person no matter what they do….