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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was fucking supposed to spend the day with Andrew. I tried to call him in the morning, then again around 2. Did he answer? No. So, I get onto AIM, and see his LOVELY MOTHERFUCKING AWAY MESSAGE. "Leaving for Angie's call if it's important." I am so pissed off it's not even funny. I hate him. This is so incredibly inconsiderate especially after all that fucking shit he said to me. "I love you", "You're great", "I have really high hopes of being with you" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So he goes over to ANGIE'S HOUSE. Angie said that he called her the other night. So, yeah, at least she has a motherfucking boyfriend. I'm so deeply hurt and confused as to why it is he went over there when he promised we would hang out. Because alledgedly he loves me. And cares.
And fucking bullshit. No one has ever stood me up before and no one ever will after this. I'm not even going to tell him I'm pissed off at him because he'll wonder what he did wrong. I'm so disappointed I'm going to cry. I need to go on a walk. I need to do *something* tonight and hope to god he calls me so this fucking pissed off feeling will last. I just want to hate him. I guess now is just not the time and I need to learn real fucking fast that I should just give up on relationships, because people lie and obviously don't care about what I feel, ever. This is the last time I trust anyone when they say we'll "hang out". I'll make my own fucking plans, and if anyone is in, that's cool. If not, I'm on my own and they can fuck themselves with a spatula.
I was fucking supposed to spend the day with Andrew. I tried to call him in the morning, then again around 2. Did he answer? No. So, I get onto AIM, and see his LOVELY MOTHERFUCKING AWAY MESSAGE. "Leaving for Angie's call if it's important." I am so pissed off it's not even funny. I hate him. This is so incredibly inconsiderate especially after all that fucking shit he said to me. "I love you", "You're great", "I have really high hopes of being with you" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So he goes over to ANGIE'S HOUSE. Angie said that he called her the other night. So, yeah, at least she has a motherfucking boyfriend. I'm so deeply hurt and confused as to why it is he went over there when he promised we would hang out. Because alledgedly he loves me. And cares.
And fucking bullshit. No one has ever stood me up before and no one ever will after this. I'm not even going to tell him I'm pissed off at him because he'll wonder what he did wrong. I'm so disappointed I'm going to cry. I need to go on a walk. I need to do *something* tonight and hope to god he calls me so this fucking pissed off feeling will last. I just want to hate him. I guess now is just not the time and I need to learn real fucking fast that I should just give up on relationships, because people lie and obviously don't care about what I feel, ever. This is the last time I trust anyone when they say we'll "hang out". I'll make my own fucking plans, and if anyone is in, that's cool. If not, I'm on my own and they can fuck themselves with a spatula.