i suck.
i might be moving away for college. away from my home, my life, and my friends.
and i think i'm ok with that.
but i don't want to leave high school. looking back on the years i've spent here, i love it. honestly. it's been the best time and it's almost over and i can't do a damn thing about it. i'm just going to miss everything so much.
it only gets harder. i don't want to grow up. i don't want to work, and pay bills, and get married. in that order. and yes, they all go together. i want to stay here, at 17, and live my life forever. i want to come home from school with my book bag and my winter coat on and see my house and my room and my friends. and i want to talk on the phone about high school drama and stupid people, and talk in class about who's pregnant and where the new kid is from, and what really is going on with the psa's. i want the security of knowing what is going to happen every day, even though i continuously say i hate every minute of it.
i wish time would just stop. now. just for a little while. graduation is only 5 months away. and what happens after that? everyone leaves. everything we have known for our entire lives is gone. and no one but me seems to notice that its all horribly wrong.
i think i'm not going to finish my graduation project.
because i don't want to leave.
and i think i'm ok with that.
but i don't want to leave high school. looking back on the years i've spent here, i love it. honestly. it's been the best time and it's almost over and i can't do a damn thing about it. i'm just going to miss everything so much.
it only gets harder. i don't want to grow up. i don't want to work, and pay bills, and get married. in that order. and yes, they all go together. i want to stay here, at 17, and live my life forever. i want to come home from school with my book bag and my winter coat on and see my house and my room and my friends. and i want to talk on the phone about high school drama and stupid people, and talk in class about who's pregnant and where the new kid is from, and what really is going on with the psa's. i want the security of knowing what is going to happen every day, even though i continuously say i hate every minute of it.
i wish time would just stop. now. just for a little while. graduation is only 5 months away. and what happens after that? everyone leaves. everything we have known for our entire lives is gone. and no one but me seems to notice that its all horribly wrong.
i think i'm not going to finish my graduation project.
because i don't want to leave.