even if it kills me.
When I wake up in the morning, turn my head to realize it's not you anymore.. A sense of relief sometimes, relieved that I'm not beside someone who wasn't dreaming of me. We both know you never dreamt of me. I was what was comfortable, not what you wanted, not what you needed. I remember the times you'd turn over and say a different name in your sleep. It's when I think about moments like that, I'm so happy this pathetic story had an ending, so glad that 12/8/07 brought complete closure once and for all. You left me a message on the plane, said you were just happy I'm happy.. Thank you for that.
Yesterday I cleaned my entire room, organized everything, stood at the door, and for the first time in that room, I felt like I was home. Minneapolis now feels more home than it ever did. Putting things with Alex to rest, has finally made the memories of life in Wisconsin, just that, memories. Its exactly where I need to be. The group of people I've fallen into caught me at just the right time and I'm staying just where I landed.
Mike Eames makes me the most smiley giggly happiest girl in the world, there's no hiding it. I love his room mates, I love that me and Pat are on good, no great terms again. And of course I love Alex Perpich cuz she's the reason for all this. Don't know what I'll do when she leaves this spring. Ever since I've been coming up to Mpls she's always been here, it won't be the same without her. She knows the city like the back of her hand, I guess everyone itches for something new at some point. Part of me wishes she'd get a place with me and stay.
Alright another hour untill I can have a cigarette and california and emily.
Something tastes different, maybe its my tounge.
Something tastes different, suddenly I'm not so young.
Yesterday I cleaned my entire room, organized everything, stood at the door, and for the first time in that room, I felt like I was home. Minneapolis now feels more home than it ever did. Putting things with Alex to rest, has finally made the memories of life in Wisconsin, just that, memories. Its exactly where I need to be. The group of people I've fallen into caught me at just the right time and I'm staying just where I landed.
Mike Eames makes me the most smiley giggly happiest girl in the world, there's no hiding it. I love his room mates, I love that me and Pat are on good, no great terms again. And of course I love Alex Perpich cuz she's the reason for all this. Don't know what I'll do when she leaves this spring. Ever since I've been coming up to Mpls she's always been here, it won't be the same without her. She knows the city like the back of her hand, I guess everyone itches for something new at some point. Part of me wishes she'd get a place with me and stay.
Alright another hour untill I can have a cigarette and california and emily.
Something tastes different, maybe its my tounge.
Something tastes different, suddenly I'm not so young.