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i miss things.
a year and a half ago. when you couldn't wait to see me. when you would hold my hand just so you could touch me for a minute. when we would stay up all night watching lame tv-well rather, not watching but making love until we fell asleep in each others arms. i miss passionate kisses and romantic moments. i miss the silence when we look into each others eyes. i miss laughing until we might throw up. i miss you touching my head in the morning and telling me you love me when you think i'm asleep. i miss you and i being one.
i feel empty, lost, wanting, and not knowing how to achieve. i feel like i'm the cause. like i destruct everything good i get my hands on. love is not a thing for me to have. it is not a luxury i am able to keep. love keeps me at arms length when i get too close, when i finally get the good stuff.
i hate what i've become to you. i hate what we've become, but want to love what we can be.
who's to say if this will work, but right now my heart is heavy and i have a lump in my throat.
a year and a half ago. when you couldn't wait to see me. when you would hold my hand just so you could touch me for a minute. when we would stay up all night watching lame tv-well rather, not watching but making love until we fell asleep in each others arms. i miss passionate kisses and romantic moments. i miss the silence when we look into each others eyes. i miss laughing until we might throw up. i miss you touching my head in the morning and telling me you love me when you think i'm asleep. i miss you and i being one.
i feel empty, lost, wanting, and not knowing how to achieve. i feel like i'm the cause. like i destruct everything good i get my hands on. love is not a thing for me to have. it is not a luxury i am able to keep. love keeps me at arms length when i get too close, when i finally get the good stuff.
i hate what i've become to you. i hate what we've become, but want to love what we can be.
who's to say if this will work, but right now my heart is heavy and i have a lump in my throat.