i drink too much and don't know much of anything
i'm beginning to see that it's not any one person that i miss, but more just being in a group. sleeping in someone else's bed. knowing that so and so is doing this and that and will be here at such and such a time. there's no wit and no beauty. just people and throw up in sinks and pasta burned on stoves and feeling O.K. all the damn time. just white out on toenails and jonbenet ramsey on tv and almost empty bottles of malibu hiding in the closet. and talking about life like it's glamorous and sensational and important, but living through every second of it like it hurts and never really noticing anything.
and knowing everyone knows but they don't know which know your are knowing right now because it's all their life and their mood and their movie and the know that they know now and maybe the know you know that they'll know some other time soon and try to tell you that you know but you won't know right then at that time because you'll be knowing something else.
AHHHH
and knowing everyone knows but they don't know which know your are knowing right now because it's all their life and their mood and their movie and the know that they know now and maybe the know you know that they'll know some other time soon and try to tell you that you know but you won't know right then at that time because you'll be knowing something else.
AHHHH