I wish I could.

[_trappedinabox]

I'm failing at everything that I could possibly be failing in right now, and I'm scared of what will come next.

• I forgot to submit my JOUR199 midterm report and timesheets last Friday. I just plain forgot that I even had to do this, while I was just looking forward so much to the weekend and hanging out with my friends, and even the possibility of

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[luckkittylitter]

To make things even worse, I never know who I can talk to about everything, not because any of you did anything wrong or that I don't trust any of you. At every moment that I panic, I always figure that I'm being too dramatic or pessimistic about everything going around me. But when everything starts to hurt this badly, when every day is just a reminder that I can't seem to do anything right, then... what do I do? I have to stop putting my roommate through this silent treatment I always give when I'm trying not to show her my weakness, and I need to stop telling my parents that everything is under control.

If you ever need me I'm totally here. I do that all the time--all of it. I never want anyone to know how I REALLY feel so I dump 35% of it into LJ and walk away, not saying anything to my roommate, and basically scaring her.
I don't know ANYTHING about the UMD policy, but maybe you can take the courses over if you do fail? I know it's the last thing you want to do (because it's always the last thing anyone wants to do) and it will theoretically put you behind.
I had a simliar experience--what with my plaigarism drama--and though I always feel it hanging over my head, no one seems to know about it and my engl professor hasn't mentioned it once (and I have him this semester).

What I DO know is though you may be "failing" now you are NOT a failure in life.

xox
kitty