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Go out to our local bar to celebrate Pat's bday while he is in town... Walk in the door expecting to see our group at the big front table... Deer in headlights moment of just standing there in the doorway staring at the giant group of people that I've been excommunicated from. Head straight to the bar and pound a few beers in a row.
It was nice to see Brigitte, and Jimmy (who stayed after everyone left to have a real long heart to heart with me) and even Jason came to say hi. Jason, always so sweet. Lis came up too and gave me a hug. I didn't expect that.
My group of friends is amazing though. They new someone was wrong, that made me so anxious, but Lauren was my smoking buddy, Marco was all affectionate, and Pat couldn't stop telling his gf about how awesome Marco is, and how I'm perfect for him... <3
Well, after years of being terrified to running into any of them, giving up a Starbucks I loved to go to (even during the year, I just can't go there anymore it's not the same) and the 2 days of the year that make me feel like shit (and write cryptic lj entries about those that are still my friends not caring that it's been years and we are all adults) I finally had the run in I never wanted. I feel like I did well. I just smiled and went on with my friends. I didn't have to worry about being judged like I thought I would have. I just had a good time :)
In other news, I woke up this morning feeling like this
It was nice to see Brigitte, and Jimmy (who stayed after everyone left to have a real long heart to heart with me) and even Jason came to say hi. Jason, always so sweet. Lis came up too and gave me a hug. I didn't expect that.
My group of friends is amazing though. They new someone was wrong, that made me so anxious, but Lauren was my smoking buddy, Marco was all affectionate, and Pat couldn't stop telling his gf about how awesome Marco is, and how I'm perfect for him... <3
Well, after years of being terrified to running into any of them, giving up a Starbucks I loved to go to (even during the year, I just can't go there anymore it's not the same) and the 2 days of the year that make me feel like shit (and write cryptic lj entries about those that are still my friends not caring that it's been years and we are all adults) I finally had the run in I never wanted. I feel like I did well. I just smiled and went on with my friends. I didn't have to worry about being judged like I thought I would have. I just had a good time :)
In other news, I woke up this morning feeling like this