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things are hardly falling into place or feel right. i cant find an apartment for september. there is a rift between my best friend and i. im struggling to figure myself out. i have never felt closer to being this lonely before. sometimes i feel like the only answer to how lethargic i am is to drink myself to death. there is so much i hate right now. i hate how so many people can make me feel so horrible without even knowing. i hate that i let it get this way. i dont want september to come. i hate pretending i like you people. i really fucking do.