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Ugh. I feel like crap. And I feel so bad for Josh.
I am not being nice and I regret that so much because it just gives him more reason to push me away. I'll drop it. It's his choice. Whatever makes him happy, truly will make me happy.
I can't cry anymore. The last three days of crying have been too much. The ache is so strong. I can't do anything though without thinking of him! Everything reminds me of that EAC that was once mine. My tree beard, my f-a-g alphabet maker, my best friend...The person who made me live again. I had never felt so alive before I met him. I am so thankful.
I can't let the 7 months end in vain. I can't and I won't.
School was ok. I was suprised to hear so many people tell me they liked my hair. It was nice to hear. I have a ton of homework, but I am not really in the mood to do anything. I have youth group tonight and I can not wait to see Amanda. I don't worry about a damn thing when I am with her. She gives me such a bliss. She's the only one who can do that anymore. She's the only person I am SOO close with anymore =\
Dani has been really wonderful lately. I am really glad about that.
I am not being nice and I regret that so much because it just gives him more reason to push me away. I'll drop it. It's his choice. Whatever makes him happy, truly will make me happy.
I can't cry anymore. The last three days of crying have been too much. The ache is so strong. I can't do anything though without thinking of him! Everything reminds me of that EAC that was once mine. My tree beard, my f-a-g alphabet maker, my best friend...The person who made me live again. I had never felt so alive before I met him. I am so thankful.
I can't let the 7 months end in vain. I can't and I won't.
School was ok. I was suprised to hear so many people tell me they liked my hair. It was nice to hear. I have a ton of homework, but I am not really in the mood to do anything. I have youth group tonight and I can not wait to see Amanda. I don't worry about a damn thing when I am with her. She gives me such a bliss. She's the only one who can do that anymore. She's the only person I am SOO close with anymore =\
Dani has been really wonderful lately. I am really glad about that.