Without a doubt, singled out cause I wanna be the minorty!!!!!!!
OMG!! LYKE OMMMMMGGGGGGG! Ahaha, Link crew was SOO MUCH FUN! I looooove Cathy! Our freshmen group was pretty out going and we totally decked ourselves out. I am really glad that I did Link Crew and I can't wait to do it again next year.
When we were talking with the freshmen, it was so cute to see them say yes they would say hi to each other and to us. It was pretty cool getting to know them better and I got to know Cathy a bit better too. It was so hot in the gym though! Ah, I was dying. So was Cathy. We threw candy into the crowd, it was fun and we were SOO loud. Aw! I had such an awesome time!! Bummer that Liza, Danielle, and Jovan did not do it. :( Maybe next year? <3
I spent the night at Cathy's house last night, after Josh went home around 10 o' clock. We stayed up until one or so and got up at 5:45. We got to the school by 6:15, but them Mrs. L. wasn't there until 6:30.
One thing I HAVE to say: FRESHMEM!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHA *tapes over the M with N* Cathy <333 Best times.
I miss Amanda :( My stepdad is going to work on her Mustang. It needs to be checked over, since it is a used car even if she wasn't having problems with it.
Tonight, I really hope that Josh and I are still going to the movies to see Without A Paddle. That would be great. <3
My nails are neon pink. Go figure.
I feel hyppppppppper! YAY ajdfkasdjfk I do not know why. I think I am kind of anxious for school to start. I just really hope things work out during the school year. I hope my group will still hang out by the yellow tables. *sigh* I miss the old times. A lot at that.
After today, I did not realize how much I feel...that I have grown. I do not feel like my age. Not when I've lived at least 50 years already. I feel much better than before. I am so glad that I have Josh and Amanda <333
After camp, it made me realize a lot. It's like, I knew certain things already, but finally I went through them. It helped me a lot. Some people say that I act like a mature 20 year-old. I guess that is not a bad thing in some ways, but then again it is. I shouldn't be so old when I am so young? It's great to be mature? I don't know. I will have to think about that. I feel like I aged another year without my birthday today. That's the only way I can actually explain it. It's a physical feeling as well as a emotional feeling of growth. Hmm..Maybe when I saw the freshmen, It made me think too much of how I use to be back in 8th grade. Man, the things I did. =\ Eh, I don't regret anything I do, but some things I did were really stupid. I have moved away from a lot of that. I have completely new friends. I NEVER pictured myself with Josh until last year. I feel closer with Amanda then before. I appreciate my family a lot more. I don't see where I would be without my strong Mom. I've lost a lot of friends this year, this summer. I gain them back but then something else just goes wrong; but I can be VERY content with just having two realllllly awesome friends; Amanda and Josh. I am glad that I have friends like Amanda P., Cathy and Jovy, but we don't hang out. Dani and I...Well? I don't really know where we stand, We aren't as close as before, but that's okay. Maybe it will change. She's not having the best time right now anyways. I am glad to have Lily, Afton, Julie, and Kimmee in my life because I know they will always be sweet. <3 I miss my brother Randy...SO SO much. I really wish that I could at least talk to him. It's just another father lost for me. I am so nervous about my birthday. Isn't bad for someone to be scared to have a party because people have been assholes and screwed them up so much before? I don't know, but I am suppose to do something special because it's a BIG birthday. My Aunt Tracy and my Mom want to do something at least, even if it's just my family. I have until the 15th to think about stuff anyways. My real dad might come down for my birthday, but I am not about to get my hopes up. I am looking forward to making this year a lot better than last year. Winter Formal will be awesome with Josh. Ahaha, I just realized my *friends did not include me in there Winter Formal plans. Nice, but that's ok. I wasn't really their friend at the time anyways, I think. I miss the good old times, but I know I can't relive them nor will they happen again. That's why I look forward so much to the future. I can't wait to go to college, to get a job, to buy my own car. I can be in my own house where I can make my choices, do what I want. I truly feel so old right now. It sucks. To think about my past. It's not THAT bad, but damn. *sigh* anyways, I just needed to get these thoughts down some where.
Oh, and, I miss Josh. "I'm going to carry you in, in my head - in my heart - in my soul."
Sorry this was so long.
When we were talking with the freshmen, it was so cute to see them say yes they would say hi to each other and to us. It was pretty cool getting to know them better and I got to know Cathy a bit better too. It was so hot in the gym though! Ah, I was dying. So was Cathy. We threw candy into the crowd, it was fun and we were SOO loud. Aw! I had such an awesome time!! Bummer that Liza, Danielle, and Jovan did not do it. :( Maybe next year? <3
I spent the night at Cathy's house last night, after Josh went home around 10 o' clock. We stayed up until one or so and got up at 5:45. We got to the school by 6:15, but them Mrs. L. wasn't there until 6:30.
One thing I HAVE to say: FRESHMEM!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHA *tapes over the M with N* Cathy <333 Best times.
I miss Amanda :( My stepdad is going to work on her Mustang. It needs to be checked over, since it is a used car even if she wasn't having problems with it.
Tonight, I really hope that Josh and I are still going to the movies to see Without A Paddle. That would be great. <3
My nails are neon pink. Go figure.
I feel hyppppppppper! YAY ajdfkasdjfk I do not know why. I think I am kind of anxious for school to start. I just really hope things work out during the school year. I hope my group will still hang out by the yellow tables. *sigh* I miss the old times. A lot at that.
After today, I did not realize how much I feel...that I have grown. I do not feel like my age. Not when I've lived at least 50 years already. I feel much better than before. I am so glad that I have Josh and Amanda <333
After camp, it made me realize a lot. It's like, I knew certain things already, but finally I went through them. It helped me a lot. Some people say that I act like a mature 20 year-old. I guess that is not a bad thing in some ways, but then again it is. I shouldn't be so old when I am so young? It's great to be mature? I don't know. I will have to think about that. I feel like I aged another year without my birthday today. That's the only way I can actually explain it. It's a physical feeling as well as a emotional feeling of growth. Hmm..Maybe when I saw the freshmen, It made me think too much of how I use to be back in 8th grade. Man, the things I did. =\ Eh, I don't regret anything I do, but some things I did were really stupid. I have moved away from a lot of that. I have completely new friends. I NEVER pictured myself with Josh until last year. I feel closer with Amanda then before. I appreciate my family a lot more. I don't see where I would be without my strong Mom. I've lost a lot of friends this year, this summer. I gain them back but then something else just goes wrong; but I can be VERY content with just having two realllllly awesome friends; Amanda and Josh. I am glad that I have friends like Amanda P., Cathy and Jovy, but we don't hang out. Dani and I...Well? I don't really know where we stand, We aren't as close as before, but that's okay. Maybe it will change. She's not having the best time right now anyways. I am glad to have Lily, Afton, Julie, and Kimmee in my life because I know they will always be sweet. <3 I miss my brother Randy...SO SO much. I really wish that I could at least talk to him. It's just another father lost for me. I am so nervous about my birthday. Isn't bad for someone to be scared to have a party because people have been assholes and screwed them up so much before? I don't know, but I am suppose to do something special because it's a BIG birthday. My Aunt Tracy and my Mom want to do something at least, even if it's just my family. I have until the 15th to think about stuff anyways. My real dad might come down for my birthday, but I am not about to get my hopes up. I am looking forward to making this year a lot better than last year. Winter Formal will be awesome with Josh. Ahaha, I just realized my *friends did not include me in there Winter Formal plans. Nice, but that's ok. I wasn't really their friend at the time anyways, I think. I miss the good old times, but I know I can't relive them nor will they happen again. That's why I look forward so much to the future. I can't wait to go to college, to get a job, to buy my own car. I can be in my own house where I can make my choices, do what I want. I truly feel so old right now. It sucks. To think about my past. It's not THAT bad, but damn. *sigh* anyways, I just needed to get these thoughts down some where.
Oh, and, I miss Josh. "I'm going to carry you in, in my head - in my heart - in my soul."
Sorry this was so long.