wish I knew what was going on in life, but if I did it wouldn't be life now would it?
I REALLY HOPE NICOLE WILL COMMENT ABOUT MY LOVELY SUBJECT LINE. AND I HOPE IT MAKES MY DAY OR ATLEAST MAKE ME LAUGH=]
OH AND SHE GOT TO SEE THE BOY FROM PETER PAN, HE WAS AT HER WORK, BOY IS SHE L-U-C-K-Y!
So I'm in the mood to update. Sorry for all the picture posts but atleast I used a LJ cut so there should have been no problem. Since I last actually wrote everything has been going really well. everything is nice and peachy.
My weekend:
Friday night- Went and got my hair cut. I must say it is shorter than I wanted but oh well hair grows and its will be long sooner or later. Came home and watched my friday night TV shows and then took my brothers cd and went to bed at 10:30 something, then Kristen M called me and we talked for quite sometime about life and things that are going on. long story
Saturday night- Played 1313 deadend drive with greg & nick. Went over to Kristins house and met up with megan and her friend to get ready for homecoming and while we were getting ready Kristins mom took a picture of me pulling my dress up so it looks as if im playing with my boobs. eh thats always nice. Talked to norm and jeanie(brian's parents) they all said we looked cute. megan and her friend left to go because me and Kristin are slow and still we not ready. got to homecoming took pictures and then Kristin went to go look for sanders and then i went and hung outwith Ashley and Kacee and then I lost kristin and then found her again and then we all hung out, gene came over to me and we talked and hung out and danced. (KristEn M sorry about last night I really am.) then went back and spent the night at Kristins
Sunday- woke up to find that kristin was gone and nowhere to be found she went to get dognuts with dougie then we ate sat on the computer and then HER BRIAN called and she was so happy it made me smile!!=] then i went took a shower and her mom brought back jack in the box for us and we ate then I came home and cleaned up my room and fixed my picture frames and things like that and did some laundry. I know exciting.
I don't know about you but I am sick of the layout that they have on Lj. It is bugging me.
I figured it out! I am so smart. I am not ready to let go of the friendship, im just not. I still find myself crying over times about him and calling him with my blocked number and muting the phone to see how many times he'll say hello. I find myself keeping things he gave me and all the good times we have. Why do things like this happen? being so close and then just to fall apart. This feeling kinda sunx, im not sure but it does alittle. but today I got closer, to my goal I guess, I ripped a picture up of just him, then I looked at it in the trash and I kinda grunted at it as if I did something wrong. Yes I understand that he needs time but hell you would thing that 8 months would be good enough? but no its not. Maybe it all comes down to me and that I am not the good person or friend I mean I did start some of this and maybe it is all my fault but I'll never really know now will I, since he'll never talk to me again. I seriously tired so hard I mean I wrote him a letter and everything and I got nothing back, he didnt even call or TEXT me to tell me he read it and to tell me what he thought of it. When I brought the letter to him the first time and no one anwsered the door my heart was pounding and I was so nervous I didnt know what was going on. Then the second time I went and he was home but in the shower and I went into his room and too look around that room and see it again all the good time flashed into my head again and again. it was like the vcr in my head was doing rewind pause play rewind pause play. over and over again. I need a way to get over this or to fix it but i never will know when that is going to happen. ugh on me
OH AND SHE GOT TO SEE THE BOY FROM PETER PAN, HE WAS AT HER WORK, BOY IS SHE L-U-C-K-Y!
So I'm in the mood to update. Sorry for all the picture posts but atleast I used a LJ cut so there should have been no problem. Since I last actually wrote everything has been going really well. everything is nice and peachy.
My weekend:
Friday night- Went and got my hair cut. I must say it is shorter than I wanted but oh well hair grows and its will be long sooner or later. Came home and watched my friday night TV shows and then took my brothers cd and went to bed at 10:30 something, then Kristen M called me and we talked for quite sometime about life and things that are going on. long story
Saturday night- Played 1313 deadend drive with greg & nick. Went over to Kristins house and met up with megan and her friend to get ready for homecoming and while we were getting ready Kristins mom took a picture of me pulling my dress up so it looks as if im playing with my boobs. eh thats always nice. Talked to norm and jeanie(brian's parents) they all said we looked cute. megan and her friend left to go because me and Kristin are slow and still we not ready. got to homecoming took pictures and then Kristin went to go look for sanders and then i went and hung outwith Ashley and Kacee and then I lost kristin and then found her again and then we all hung out, gene came over to me and we talked and hung out and danced. (KristEn M sorry about last night I really am.) then went back and spent the night at Kristins
Sunday- woke up to find that kristin was gone and nowhere to be found she went to get dognuts with dougie then we ate sat on the computer and then HER BRIAN called and she was so happy it made me smile!!=] then i went took a shower and her mom brought back jack in the box for us and we ate then I came home and cleaned up my room and fixed my picture frames and things like that and did some laundry. I know exciting.
I don't know about you but I am sick of the layout that they have on Lj. It is bugging me.
I figured it out! I am so smart. I am not ready to let go of the friendship, im just not. I still find myself crying over times about him and calling him with my blocked number and muting the phone to see how many times he'll say hello. I find myself keeping things he gave me and all the good times we have. Why do things like this happen? being so close and then just to fall apart. This feeling kinda sunx, im not sure but it does alittle. but today I got closer, to my goal I guess, I ripped a picture up of just him, then I looked at it in the trash and I kinda grunted at it as if I did something wrong. Yes I understand that he needs time but hell you would thing that 8 months would be good enough? but no its not. Maybe it all comes down to me and that I am not the good person or friend I mean I did start some of this and maybe it is all my fault but I'll never really know now will I, since he'll never talk to me again. I seriously tired so hard I mean I wrote him a letter and everything and I got nothing back, he didnt even call or TEXT me to tell me he read it and to tell me what he thought of it. When I brought the letter to him the first time and no one anwsered the door my heart was pounding and I was so nervous I didnt know what was going on. Then the second time I went and he was home but in the shower and I went into his room and too look around that room and see it again all the good time flashed into my head again and again. it was like the vcr in my head was doing rewind pause play rewind pause play. over and over again. I need a way to get over this or to fix it but i never will know when that is going to happen. ugh on me