I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself.

[_torn_apart_17]

I'm kind of getting sick of being down all the fucking time and feeling like shit. But hey it's okay because life doesn't look like it's going to get much better. Yesterday (Saturday) I was suppose to be ungrounded but apparently not because the stick has not been removed from my mom's ass yet. I fucking was eating my pizza in the kitchen and my mom put my pills in front of me and walked away assuming I'd take them or something. I said I would start them tomorrow (Sunday). Then she threw a fucking fit for no reason. She was like screaming "why did you say you would take them if you won't ever!" and "I SPENT $20 on these" and what the fuck. I said in the doctors office "uh I don't care" cz I knew they wouldn't fuck off unless I agreed to take them. And I never said I wouldn't. I WILL TAKE THEM WHEN IM GOOD AND READY GODDAMNIT! yeah so my mom freaked and I didn't even do ne thing and I said please stop talking to me because I'm gunna get pissed off and we're gunna fight but she said she didn't care and kept rampaging. and as I walked away so I wouldn't "be rude" she's like your grounded again. and that REALLY fucking pissed me off since I'd been grounded since TUESDAY. I fucking hate her. yeah and then my dad's pussywhipped so he went along with her. I fucking hate this house. BULLSHIT.
So I went to my room and started bawling once again and talked to Amy and then Nicole for awhile. Thank you for being there and letting me CRY to you! <33333