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Uhm, what the fuck is wrong with me?
There seriously must be something wrong with me.
Is she serious?
What the fuck.
I can't believe that all the shit we've been through suddenly doesn't matter because of some fucking boy.
You promised me guys would never come between us,
look at us now, we're not even friends anymore.
As soon as everything feels like it's getting better,
it suddenly just crashes.
Everything I feel like I stood for,
is blown to hell.
I don't know what's right and what's wrong.
I don't know how I should and shouldn't feel.
I'm not sure if I'm just being selfish,
or if I'm kinda right to feel this way.
I'm back to hating myself again.
But now, I don't have a best friend to catch me when I fall.
I'm pretty much on my own.
(except for Michael of course, he's been a big help,
but I will not bother him with my emoness. blegh.)
As soon as I finally felt strong,
I get blindsighted by the gayest things,
and I'm back to the beginning.
I don't want to end up like I did before.
I WILL NOT end up like I did before.
I hope I don't end up like I did before.
:/