From the heart

[_tipsy6]

I am what I can be, and nothing more. I've tried to do everything once before, and I've learned my lesson. Where I am now is in no way above where anyone else here is right now, but I am off to one side. I have done with my childhood and passed the 'teen angst' that no one ever admits. Everything that everyone is going through right now, I have

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yes. I read this sometimes.

Jennifer. I really miss talking to you. Do you remember us talking late at night through our sugar-induced insomnia about everything? That was nice. I like talking. And my opinions change. That, to me, isn't a bad thing. But anyways... Yeah. But I know what you're saying. It sounds as if you have felt all this for a long time.

My mind wants to believe that you aren't talking to me, among others, with this, but I'll assume that you are. I complain when I don't even know it. You know me. Sometimes I'll just say stuff to break the silence. I don't really know what I'm saying. It's one part of me I dislike.

You are very honest. But you also are very short with your words. I am worried about you. I always have been, and I know I never tell you, but I do. I care about you. You're one of my best friends. I really feel like we're drifting. I know we're not.. We're just getting older. But I'm an idiot.

As for the lives and happiness issue.. I think everyone is unhappy. Have you ever met anyone truely happy in all aspects of their life? I think its part of being human. Part of being bombarded with information daily, being cooped up. And I don't believe unhappiness is measured in the gravity of a situation, or how bad someone's life is. You can't measure unhappiness at all, in fact. All you can do is decide if it's real or not. True unhappiness should never be blown off, dismissed as invalid, (this ties into your idea about people only wanting someone to care), because THAT hurts a lot more than the sadness. Someone can be rich, have the best friends and have a terriffic love life, and they can still have true sorrow. Nobody has the "right" to be unhappy or happy, its not something that can be stopped.. People are people. Everything is relative. And nobody can ever completely understand. And I also think potential is (mostly) based on the person, not their lives.

Some people can be truely happy no matter what. Some people can hide their unhappiness. Some people just want something to talk about (like yours truely..damn). Some people show it just enough to worry the people around them, but seem content for the most part.

now my head is swimming. You are extremely caring. I'm really glad you are my friend, and not my enemy. You can talk to me whenever. Because I'll listen. I may not remember, but I'll listen and understand. That's what I do.

[_tipsy6]

I do miss talking all night, even if it meant only 2 hours of sleep before long a mountainous day. Some of this was pertaining to you, but not all of it. I said a lot there, but I didn't say everything I meant too, I got all befudled. (cool word, huh?). I love you dearly, and have no complaints about your complaints, but I worry about you too, more than you realize, I think. And hey, Dustin thinks you're cute ;)

Call me, my long lost sister, and thank you for responding positivly, I didn't mean to insult anyone.