quit smoking? But that's who I am.

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He wants me to quit.. and if I don't then he says he'd know that I don't love him, but then in an attempt to make things better for myself, I made things far worse, like stabbing him in the heart repeatedly. I know the way his mom is hurts him, but I had to bring it up to make him see how things with me and his mom are similar, and even if I couldn't quit for him, it doesn't mean that I don't love him, it just means I have a serious drug problem, that I know about and don't care to fix. But no matter what I do, he's going to continue believing I don't love him, and he's going to continue thinking I care more about weed than him. If I can turn down a blunt, more than once, and watch him and others smoke it in front of me how can I possibly love weed more than him? It doesn't make sense, at all. And it's not exactly fair that I'm not hurting myself and yet he still wants me to quit, I could understand if I was addicted to coke or something and he wanted me to quit that, but its just weed, I mean seriously.

Here I am beside myself, again,
I'm torn apart by words that you have said,
and all in all I know we're falling apart,
Where did you run to so far away?