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okay so my mom keeps bitchin at me because im not lookin at colleges to go to for soccer, since soccer is in the spring and it would be too late if i were to start next year cuz its in the spring ya kno.
but i am looking, and when im lookin at these colleges i srsly am not good enough for even half of these colleges i want to go to.
like i have no time to train or anything or to practice cuz of volleyball i wanna quit so bad cuz i cant stand it.
i like volleyball jus not coac w. man he singles me out everyday at practice basically and makes me look like a jack ass. and i hate that so idk wtf to do. idk but indoor soccer is comin up and i cant even go to the games because of stupid volleyball wtf is this man. i think i am going to quit. cuz i cant stand it and im always in abad mood because of it and then if i quit i can have time to practice and get ready for soccer cuz i really do want to play in college but i need to get x 101010 better if i want to play.
idk but ive been really upset lately.
i think getting used is the new thing ya kno it feels so great.
not really.
im so stupid though its my fault when i come to think about it.
and i miss my best friends cause i havent hung out with them in a while.
and its my fault cuz idk whats wrong with me lately=/
i jus wanna start off 2007 good ya kno jus like a better start idc if that sounded gay
but idk i jus want things to get better and i jus wanna be happy cuz im not:[
i hardly update, and im really bored so i decided to
but yea idk commentttttttt♥
but i am looking, and when im lookin at these colleges i srsly am not good enough for even half of these colleges i want to go to.
like i have no time to train or anything or to practice cuz of volleyball i wanna quit so bad cuz i cant stand it.
i like volleyball jus not coac w. man he singles me out everyday at practice basically and makes me look like a jack ass. and i hate that so idk wtf to do. idk but indoor soccer is comin up and i cant even go to the games because of stupid volleyball wtf is this man. i think i am going to quit. cuz i cant stand it and im always in abad mood because of it and then if i quit i can have time to practice and get ready for soccer cuz i really do want to play in college but i need to get x 101010 better if i want to play.
idk but ive been really upset lately.
i think getting used is the new thing ya kno it feels so great.
not really.
im so stupid though its my fault when i come to think about it.
and i miss my best friends cause i havent hung out with them in a while.
and its my fault cuz idk whats wrong with me lately=/
i jus wanna start off 2007 good ya kno jus like a better start idc if that sounded gay
but idk i jus want things to get better and i jus wanna be happy cuz im not:[
i hardly update, and im really bored so i decided to
but yea idk commentttttttt♥