HAPPY BIRFDAY MICHAEL AND FAHJAH!
Yaaayyy happyness for Michael and Fahjah! Its their birthdays today.
The two most important men in my life!
We were all supposed to go out to dinner together (Mikes family and mine)but Mikes mom is being wierd and doesnt want to go. I think shes shy..
AHHH! I just realised we're going to Boston Pizza. I'll most likely have pasta, since its cheap tonight. But I'm eating some now. Oh well....
I think I'm addicted.
Mike is going to shit his pants tonight. I think I might too!
We're buying a brand spanking new big screen tv, and it comes with the nex x-box 360. Super sweet! We're saving over a thousand bucks. Theres some big special going on only today. So perfect for his Bday!
The tv is honestly so huge. I don't know where we're going to put it...but meh!
I'm going to have to borrow my dads truck to bring it home. Sexy truck...mmm....
Hey, so I think I have leprosy.
My lips were peeling like crazy all last week. Actually...they've been so chapped and peeling for about a month now. But it started going past my lips and around my mouth lately. Its crazy. I have a layer of dead skin/scabs around my mouth and its all red. If I peel it off theres this juicy stuff that comes out.
I used to think I just had chapped lips from the change in weather...but it never got this crazy before. So hence....I have leprosy.
I asked the pharmacist about it, but he just said I probably got it a little infected with my dirty hands. So he gave me this stuff that looks a lot like lube to put all around my mouth. I look so funny haha
So lubey!!
I wish it tasted better though. Like strwberry lube!
I keep gagging when I taste it.
ewwwwww
I miss my ladies. All of them.
I know I see them every now and then, but usually I'm drunk, past the point of remembering anything in the morning. So it's like I never saw them at all. Just dreamt about it.
But I stopped drinking forever for good anyways.
I just feel like everyones forgotten about me.
Everyone else keeps in touch, but if I want to keep in touch I have to be the one to call or whatever. Its like they will just forget about me if I didn't remind them that I'm here every now and then.
I know its sort of my fault for not comming out as often as I used to...but I really can't do it anymore. Way too many people getting drunk...which means I feel the need to drink. Which is bad.
I just don't know what to do!
10 years from now I want to be able to pick up the phone and call any one of them without it being all awkward. You know that awkwardness when you havnt spoken to someone in a while.
I want to know of everything thats going on with them in their lives. I want them to be able to talk to me like we used to. We used to talk on the phone all the time. About nothinh and everything!
I knew my place back then...but I have no idea where I stand right now.
I just want to be a part of it all :(
The two most important men in my life!
We were all supposed to go out to dinner together (Mikes family and mine)but Mikes mom is being wierd and doesnt want to go. I think shes shy..
AHHH! I just realised we're going to Boston Pizza. I'll most likely have pasta, since its cheap tonight. But I'm eating some now. Oh well....
I think I'm addicted.
Mike is going to shit his pants tonight. I think I might too!
We're buying a brand spanking new big screen tv, and it comes with the nex x-box 360. Super sweet! We're saving over a thousand bucks. Theres some big special going on only today. So perfect for his Bday!
The tv is honestly so huge. I don't know where we're going to put it...but meh!
I'm going to have to borrow my dads truck to bring it home. Sexy truck...mmm....
Hey, so I think I have leprosy.
My lips were peeling like crazy all last week. Actually...they've been so chapped and peeling for about a month now. But it started going past my lips and around my mouth lately. Its crazy. I have a layer of dead skin/scabs around my mouth and its all red. If I peel it off theres this juicy stuff that comes out.
I used to think I just had chapped lips from the change in weather...but it never got this crazy before. So hence....I have leprosy.
I asked the pharmacist about it, but he just said I probably got it a little infected with my dirty hands. So he gave me this stuff that looks a lot like lube to put all around my mouth. I look so funny haha
So lubey!!
I wish it tasted better though. Like strwberry lube!
I keep gagging when I taste it.
ewwwwww
I miss my ladies. All of them.
I know I see them every now and then, but usually I'm drunk, past the point of remembering anything in the morning. So it's like I never saw them at all. Just dreamt about it.
But I stopped drinking forever for good anyways.
I just feel like everyones forgotten about me.
Everyone else keeps in touch, but if I want to keep in touch I have to be the one to call or whatever. Its like they will just forget about me if I didn't remind them that I'm here every now and then.
I know its sort of my fault for not comming out as often as I used to...but I really can't do it anymore. Way too many people getting drunk...which means I feel the need to drink. Which is bad.
I just don't know what to do!
10 years from now I want to be able to pick up the phone and call any one of them without it being all awkward. You know that awkwardness when you havnt spoken to someone in a while.
I want to know of everything thats going on with them in their lives. I want them to be able to talk to me like we used to. We used to talk on the phone all the time. About nothinh and everything!
I knew my place back then...but I have no idea where I stand right now.
I just want to be a part of it all :(