what hurts the most ..
ahh well last night sucked. Well dinner was good .. i had alotta fun but Homecoming SUCKED. we even left an hour early. Then i came home like a LAME. lol Oh well i ended being able to get 14 hours of sleep =) Which was well needed. Then i gotta work today at 3. Shittty but at least ill make some money.
I wish this feeling would go away. I shouldve NEVER called him. I didnt even think he was going to answer though. I was just accepting the face that we arent together .. but then the second i saw him in person that feelin was completely down the drain. I miss him with every bone in my body. I really do. And i did some really INCONSIDERATE things on friday but i would take it back if i could. I dont know if it hurt him or what but i wish it wouldve never happened. Without him in my life i swear to god it feels like a dark clouds following me. I know they say theres other fish in the sea blah blah but i dont want anybody else dammit. I want him. I really dont know what to do with this situation. Im so confused.. and just .. hurt.
God i need to get my shit together.
I wish this feeling would go away. I shouldve NEVER called him. I didnt even think he was going to answer though. I was just accepting the face that we arent together .. but then the second i saw him in person that feelin was completely down the drain. I miss him with every bone in my body. I really do. And i did some really INCONSIDERATE things on friday but i would take it back if i could. I dont know if it hurt him or what but i wish it wouldve never happened. Without him in my life i swear to god it feels like a dark clouds following me. I know they say theres other fish in the sea blah blah but i dont want anybody else dammit. I want him. I really dont know what to do with this situation. Im so confused.. and just .. hurt.
God i need to get my shit together.