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Welp i havent updated in a while in this website. i guess after i got a myspace i sort of just blew this one away. now i think i'm going to my normal routine of writing in here. myspace is whack... and i dont kno.. i feel i must separate from tht enviornment for a while since it could get addicting.
so yea.. not much has been happening. x-mas eve was great.. family came over and stuff.. and we had something to eat with them, i played with my lil cousins... christmas day was i guess the best it could get considering situations, but its only started.. sop lets see wht the rest of the day has in store for me. i'm talkin of heading out for a movie some friends.
so yea besides that , in my own personal life, i think i ended this journal still feeling bad and all about past stuff, and liking this "new crush". welp the deal with tht is as follows. i no longer dread the past.. or "hate" the past person. actually we've grown to be pretty fond of each other, and are great friends. so dats always good. we somehow learn to forget and forgive, and yup now we are friends. and tht somehow closes tht chapter in my life. as for the new one that was opening. things went great for a while, about 7 months or so, and then just...idk.. we're only friends now. along the line, i felt he shud have been more open with me etc, since i would always tell him everything that was happening with me, and he barely told me ne thing, but i mean i guess thats no ones fault really, cause some people tend to me be more open with us, and others tend to keep alot to themselves. but in the end i found out way way way more things than i wanted to. sad that it had to come from another source and not him... and i still yet to kno if its true or not, but i guess i rather just keep tht to myself... and most likely i will.. most likely i'll be keeping alot more to myself nowadays... i've learn that perhaps there really isnt any one u can fully depend on... no one can really turn into "your everything" because then when they leave... u're left with nothing.
sop thts tht..i'm hoping for school to start and den hurry its way along... so tht we could graduate. a few months ago if you would have talked to me about graduation i wud have shed a tear or so thinkin about the many people i prolli wont see ne more.. now graduation is prolli the one thing on my mind. i wanna leave, get the hell out, and just keep in touch with those who were always there for me... be it behind everything, be it just there to talk.. just those few individuals i could truly say i love.... as for others... i rather not say wht i want to about them. but my patience with some people has diminished to a sort of minimum, and i guess that "change" i sort of describe a while back... is gonna happen, cause imma make sure of it.
so yea.. not much has been happening. x-mas eve was great.. family came over and stuff.. and we had something to eat with them, i played with my lil cousins... christmas day was i guess the best it could get considering situations, but its only started.. sop lets see wht the rest of the day has in store for me. i'm talkin of heading out for a movie some friends.
so yea besides that , in my own personal life, i think i ended this journal still feeling bad and all about past stuff, and liking this "new crush". welp the deal with tht is as follows. i no longer dread the past.. or "hate" the past person. actually we've grown to be pretty fond of each other, and are great friends. so dats always good. we somehow learn to forget and forgive, and yup now we are friends. and tht somehow closes tht chapter in my life. as for the new one that was opening. things went great for a while, about 7 months or so, and then just...idk.. we're only friends now. along the line, i felt he shud have been more open with me etc, since i would always tell him everything that was happening with me, and he barely told me ne thing, but i mean i guess thats no ones fault really, cause some people tend to me be more open with us, and others tend to keep alot to themselves. but in the end i found out way way way more things than i wanted to. sad that it had to come from another source and not him... and i still yet to kno if its true or not, but i guess i rather just keep tht to myself... and most likely i will.. most likely i'll be keeping alot more to myself nowadays... i've learn that perhaps there really isnt any one u can fully depend on... no one can really turn into "your everything" because then when they leave... u're left with nothing.
sop thts tht..i'm hoping for school to start and den hurry its way along... so tht we could graduate. a few months ago if you would have talked to me about graduation i wud have shed a tear or so thinkin about the many people i prolli wont see ne more.. now graduation is prolli the one thing on my mind. i wanna leave, get the hell out, and just keep in touch with those who were always there for me... be it behind everything, be it just there to talk.. just those few individuals i could truly say i love.... as for others... i rather not say wht i want to about them. but my patience with some people has diminished to a sort of minimum, and i guess that "change" i sort of describe a while back... is gonna happen, cause imma make sure of it.