something missing
This summer, by far has been the best one yet in maryland. I worked a job for a week and got paid about 1,200, and i get to do the same job at the end of the summer. I'm so stoked about that. Seeing friends i dont get to see, a lot rules, and going to fort reno and hanging out with mike and kristin and other people who show up rules. (I've seen kristin and mike 5 days in a row, get jealous) Becoming veggiterrian and sticking to it, and standing up for things i believe in. Going to shows with awesome bands, playing in a new band, where I'm more happy with it's turnout then any other band I've ever been in. having random crushes, and getting to know people better. Having sweet shows at mt house, and being out every night, and yet still spending time with my awesome family. I love life right now. and I can only imagine how awesome college is going to be.
yet something is missing, and it's really bothering me. It's probably nothing, but this feeling, I can't even shake, and it makes me uneasy, and dampers times that should be awesome. It almost feels like disappointment , or loneliness but it's either of those because, at this moment, I've never been happier. I love my friends, I love my family, I love my band, I love my music, I love my life.
It's probably just disbelief, that after a rough end and beginning to last year and this year, I expected so much worse, but ended up with the best. I'm so happy.
yet something is missing, and it's really bothering me. It's probably nothing, but this feeling, I can't even shake, and it makes me uneasy, and dampers times that should be awesome. It almost feels like disappointment , or loneliness but it's either of those because, at this moment, I've never been happier. I love my friends, I love my family, I love my band, I love my music, I love my life.
It's probably just disbelief, that after a rough end and beginning to last year and this year, I expected so much worse, but ended up with the best. I'm so happy.